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22. The collective weight of humanity's karma.

Even though much is addressed and alleviated there are compounding factors and fresh insults to the spiritual worlds daily, which are also experienced by the sensitive man. The body of men which currently are incarnate in the world do affect the world (the Planetary Being, the Planetary Council, the being of Man, and the lower and higher hierarchies) on a daily basis. This is something which is also felt very strongly by the growing individual who struggles to have humanity free from the condition it is generally currently perpetuating.

The mention above refers to conditions of karma which can affect us from also the deceased in our communities and family; things which just by natural consequence alone may infect a town or a place due to past actions which still continue in effect. However this passage deals with the living men, who as one corporate mind and being, represent Man in the world on this calendar day. This too is a force and a feeling to be recognized.

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21. The weight of one's racial and family karma.

This too travels with us at all times. Although there have been many laws lessened according to our Christ's Presence amongst us, and the way in which our karmic bonds relate, there are still (if not binding) karmic ties we perceive and acknowledge that affect us and our communities too.

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20. The weight of one's own personal karma as known (generally unconsciously experienced until active) and the sadness at incurring the more difficult aspects so borne.

This has a very large reality to it, for heaviness is experienced whilst also integrity as well. Every piece of our karmic responsibility travels with us and is ever present before our soul's eye. Our days are blended by such events, brought and wrought by such a karmic response to our previous callings. 

So this is how we function, but not without a measure of apprehension into the bargain.

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19. Constant disappointment as a general condition firstly (then highlighted later by conscious discernments which are generally predictable).

There are a few phases to be noted about this disappointment. Firstly, disappointment can live with us just as generally without specificity, as Certainty does. It just is. Repeated disappointments confirm the bank, and then follows the larger disappointment that we were disappointed at all. 

The word 'disappointment' however, implies some element of surprise, and yet most of our disappointments are in fact very predictable to us. So the largest disappointment comes of our falling into such a pattern of a depressed disappointment, and by being sadly surprised by something which was not really surprising and not much of a let down far from a place than we were at already!

The onset of disappointment degenerates further acts and hopes, fulfilling its predictability given at the outset. It is good therefore to be aware of it and to dismiss it once committed to the ideal. At the very least we will be surprised the next time, if it happens upon us again. Let's be truly disappointed!!! and not give way to the mundane affliction of just the partial disposition!

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