Beauty & Conceit- 22nd May 1992

WHAT is that thing which establishes the all important difference?:

• between fetish and devotion;

• between obstinacy and compliance to the Law;

• between humility and downheartedness;

• between forthrightness and self-determination;

• between conviction and dogmatism;

• between consistency and 'staidness';

• betwixt indignation and anger;

• separating alarm from fear with due consideration;

• level, rational thinking from mechanical intercourse;

• true compassion from self-indulgence;

• ego-identity from egotism and self-love

What are the gradients which distinguish one from the other?

It is the individual who determines thus. How quickly we view the soul of another and in judgment perceive the first within ourselves and the second within the other. Conceit is the divider to the extreme - always first and last. Conceit and the amount thereof, shall make for the distinguishing marks upon attitude of mind, soul and subsequent action.

Oh precious man! - To whom much glory is afforded. The truth is ever the accelerator and the provision for this our humble plight! How does one drive out such conceit, and with constancy and vigilant enterprise, deny his return and his whisperings?

We need not be uncertain in order to be curious or open-minded, and yet the paradox of separating knowledge and doubt from each other shall prove that further knowledge does illumine one; whereas doubts shall only bring chaos. Certain chaos may be afforded at intervals which in time bring new order, bring new offerings. 

Do we doubt with validity or do we doubt because we fear to be wrong? Do we doubt because we do doubt but ourselves? Such considerations require some stable premise from which to work from.

If we can but separate self-interest from that which we set out to develop - i.e. for the sake of the good and the glorious - then we shall mark such divisions with according intent.

It is instinctive to man to be without conceit, yet the older one gets the more pivotal, the more remedial, the question becomes. One may deny the self by the adoption of conceit. The most unsure, unconfident man, may be enveloped quite grossly in Conceit's hesitations, because all is taken to self without release: release into the world, release into simply being, and release into the love of God. 

Just as surely as true self-denial is the withholding of those Heavenly attributes, so also is conceit the carrier and vehicle for the intimidation of soul. As much as there are diseases of body and subsequent disturbances, there are too, maladies of spirit. 

Interestingly enough, for those who are so taken with fixations about 'galactic wars and battles', it is usually because of inner tensions and conflicts that they associate with such concepts and queerly find them pleasing to consider. If there is something to be certain about, it is the importance of being certain that the prospects of Beauty, of Grace and of Divine love shall find expression, no matter how long the winter or heavy the snowfall! That Heaven herself shall and does prevail. That Creation has provided for decay and decease by Her terms and none other; for such elements would not be if it were not by Her design. And that Creation outlives all destruction because of this. 

So by this broader approach, which may not be deemed optimism but rather happy fact, we may establish a point of view which is harmoniously strong; and whilst strengthens the self, is not of the self. 

On the other hand, we may find that opponents are many who devise considerations which are negligent or remiss, in thus accepting the Holy Cosmos. For there is strife - as has been for a very long episode - strife which is born again from this conceit which believes that the outer and inner spheres may be reflected within the personal arena. However, all that which is attributable in Man is to be found in actuality, tangibly without. That which is elemental to the good and the glorious is manifested not only in realms of spiritual conjecture. Lo! Think only of those images produced today purporting trillions of galaxies, profoundly beautiful even to the uninspired! Beauty is a fact: undeniable, unpronounceable.

Here we may stop to consider what beauty exactly may be; or more properly the nature of Beauty in all of her manifestations. One will feel accordingly that beauty is an example of that which appeals to us as being right: as it should be, an inspiring design, an example of perfection. The hillocks may be ill-defined and the curves of the sea change with rapidity, but overall that natural world and those expressions of Creation that hold beauty within which we marvel at - all feel correct and are pleasing because they feel right.

If something is out of place on a picture or a face, then we immediately become disconcerted, and we may not feel inspired to beauty. Rather and interestingly, beauty is intrinsic to Creation, and this is known by us. But deviations and mixes which are inharmonious denote a sinister deformation of what was once or should be, beautiful.

These are high and lofty concepts and are not to be confused with mere insults or judgments as to the lot of many and their current habitat. But most assuredly, one cannot gauge the spiritual implications and prospects of men simply by the world today and the images cast within. However, if we can arrive at this simple truth, we shall find that many are out of touch with the concept of beauty actually being hand in hand with the true and glorious order of being- to know beauty and come to recognize it. 

We find that when a soul is exalted by wondrous inspirations - whether they be colored by: compassion, by striving, by compunction, by illumination and so forth - there is an ineffable beauty so known, that infills he who does receive. So often we recoil from that which is unsightly in the world and know not of certain hideous sins that we support unseen, but in scowl, in attitude, go with us.

Here we find that Conceit has the remarkable ability to reassure us that ugliness is in fact, acceptable. For Conceit is verily the half-brother to Beauty, and steps in afore Beauty may be realized. One does inhibit the other in both force and in manifestation. For Conceit is content and relatively inactive in inspiration. Beauty - essential to Creation - is constantly active, motivating and producing. 

Originally the ascetics meant well by full believing that Beauty could not be made manifest by man, as well as in God or secondly within Creation. So the world was to be discarded and the life a simple one. Then concurrently, those who were empowered to be artists or afford the artists, lived too for a beauty and strove to embellish the world or their homes with creations of such. 

Today the emphasis is on essentialism, whereby the common thought discards a striving towards beauty and replaces much consideration to functionalism first. This is making people ill. It really makes a difference. Not even that men must dwell amongst unsightly creations of uninspired men, but that rarely do men strive for beauty itself. The children are affected thereby, as are the resounding thoughts of men. They are discontent, they are suicidal to the extreme - because, they know that Beauty is not being entertained and so drawn into the earthly sphere. They long for her.

Most people will find agreement on true beauty. And here to interject - it is important to say, that were one to set about creating a public venue, do not (not even just for the sake of good taste) make it gimmicky and try to attract folk so. People need beauty, even outstanding beauty. How wondrous it should be, if a group of individuals set about - as has been in the past - creating a public place of truly remarkable beauty. Mr. Disney definitely got it all wrong, and yet you must realize, people still go there in search of such inspiration and wonderment and come away sorely disappointed- quite deformed characteristics, etc. On the other hand, the original efforts did do very well by nature and characteristic in some of the effects.

Particular countries today do radiate an illumined sense of the richness of color, of curve, of creation. These are of the old-world, rather than of newer trends. 

The perception of true beauty answers all conceit. This we may marvel at and give praise accordingly to a marvelous design with a wondrous intent. Let us not doubt, nor dismay, nor self-indulge, but come to know that the larger scheme is pleasing, infilling, true and correct . . . and most beautiful.

Testing Medicines- 12th May 1992

Reference: AIDS

• First point, is that all substances may become poisonous to man.

• Second point: as with the example shown with silver, there are periods during the day, month and the year, where toxicity will rise and fall - the complete relationship to man will alter. Differing results will be shown depending upon ingestion times, and times of overall experiments. A substance can swing from a food to a poison in twelve hour periods.

• Third point: is that upon which the many medicines hitherto provided were based or formed upon bacterially. Namely, if bacteria has been cultured or administered through use of wheat (deformed then in that sense), it may be that wheat products later on become poisonous.

To a degree, a weakened immune response at the time of ingestion may also cause later vulnerability, but a severe case such as this is not the point - the actual point being that the substances whereby antibiotic bacteria are harvested, mutate the substance and the man's relationship to the substance, and the tolerance is so lowered, that at the peak times of toxicity (less resistance also) the man shall be incapable of assimilating or passing the now foreign format of that which was formerly known to him.

Organic products that decompose are as poison; it is the growth of a healthy etheric life-pattern which sustains and supports desirous influences within a man. However, life which follows after decomposition is a separate life; one which feeds off decomposition, and thus encourages the breakdown of the lively elements which it sets itself upon.

Before a medicine is administered the trials should be made at all times of the day to measure response; and for that matter, all times of the year. Only suitable times should be cleaved to - if it is apparent that this is so. So many tests are incomplete because this consideration is not taken into account.

Anxiety & Doom- 6th May 1992

ANXIETY is paralleled by muscular cramp. In seizure we are temporarily immobilized and resist ourselves- be it the clamp and tackle of a muscular reflex, or the locking of thoughts which are equally as difficult to 'loosen' and ease up. The pressure and consequent pain is derivative of that action - one thought acting against another- and the individual suffers turmoil because of this delay in activity.

As with a frozen and unobliging member, one must necessarily act quickly to counteract that particular which is causing the resistance. A healthy flow of mind activity is not so easily accomplished when the mind itself is detailed with exaggerated proportions of upset and seizure. Anxiety is pitched to frenzy and can result in total collapse, before one is released from the drives which have maintained such a seizure.

An individual may be drawn to alarm, when there are no impending causes apparent. This alarm is notified and acted upon - where the breath and the pulse are quickened, the heat is forced in, the individual feels 'stifled' and the concentration is awash. How then to bring about stability upon the rocky seas?

One must learn to bring together some of the recollections of happier times. Whatever the propulsion into anxiety is, it is usually because one believes that control over the situation is to the greater part, lost or forfeited. This feeling of loss of control shall spiral, one upon another, until what was an echo of a truth becomes an enormous reality of doom. Anxiety is precisely the experience of doom itself. And Doom is a formidable vision to experience. Of course, although there may be certain reality in Doom and his character, he himself may not withstand change, change which defies him, again and again.

There have been countless past experiences which all men do share whereupon they have encountered this fiendish apparition, and because of plans tried or ways so entered into, it has resulted poorly - the exit was quick, the shock so great, and so forth. And he does present himself time and time again, even though he shall never have the final word. It is understandable that an individual should feel pursued in the extreme, for encounters in the future will almost assuredly be made.

To the sensitive soul, one can actually receive images of Doom from others who are so impressed, and herein is one anxiety which strikes when confronting other people and becoming irked thereby.

Basically it is because we are acquainted with deep memories of those situations of horror or shock, which preceded our encounter with Doom, that we may become once again sensitive to the prospect of his return. All of those who suffer from anxiety know this dreaded feeling and imagery so conjured thereby.

In actual truth however, we have endured many, many trials and encounters, all of which whose gates we are through and quite safe. It is strange to say, but there is a paradox in meeting with the presence of Doom, for it is almost as if he were but a messenger of hope also. Because by the time that he is truly envisioned, conditions will change in a way that the individual shall be released by that which has overwhelmed them.

It is the apprehension and the alarm of the prospect of meeting with Doom which alerts the individual to the possibility of great change. The prospect of such enormous change upsets the one who envisions and panics and resists in mental deadlock the situation afore them.

So one can see that it maybe remarkably complicated, and yet at the same time nothing may actually issue forth from such alarm. Yet when one considers Doom, and the actuality of former recollections, it is no wonder that some are distressed, as the accumulated experiences of such are acutely experienced in awesome proportions.

However, we must be stern in our knowledge and our considerations of circumstance. It is wise to come to know that we are held safely, snugly in the bosom of circumstance. We shall not fall into a bottomless pit which is endless. Even though we bump and slide there is always rest and repose and exit therefrom.

This is why the happier recollections, the treasures that we know of, can be so useful and of first importance. That we may counter those impressions of upset with those which were grander and more wondrous, which came after.

It is a law common to all that there is restitution always afforded; especially in the sense of one who has suffered - great joys to them are always later the reward. To know this is important- to truly look for happier days. To know that whatever trials and pains may eventuate, there shall be recompense; for each soul is so treasured. The anguish of a violent death, the imprint of grief, of loss and of pain - these are worked upon within the Heavenly spheres to ensure that the soul is renewed and unscathed. 

To the sufferer of anxiety, there is as only one half of the representation becoming known to them. It is as though they are at the threshold with forewarning of Doom and believing that all is quite lost. One must cross that threshold bravely, with whatever one fears, apparent or devised, and come to know that on the other side lies all that is lost and more - quite real and in terms of truth, more tangible than ever before.

We fail to realize this as we walk the world. We necessarily hold much precious to us and shall not submit to loss or change, for such reluctance is an ingredient to existence. But there is surely an existence, which for us is more permanent and shall withstand far beyond the worldly sphere, as it represents only some of that which lies beyond.

To come to agreement within oneself of the parallel of worldly life and that existence which reaches out into forever, is somewhat irreconcilable. However if we can greet Doom himself with the optimism of greater vision and know that even his calling brings promise beyond the threshold of change, then we shall be relieved of much burdensome anxiety which does otherwise grip at the neck of the alarmed.

Light Exercise- 1992

LOOK at the light as it touches unevenly all that it falls upon. See here a shadow, see here a great spark, on the leaves, on the tops of that which it fires.

There are gradients of light, the way in which the scene is lit, and one may focus best upon the shadows, or upon the most brilliant. Seek with your eyes, the shiniest, brightest places within the scene. Go to them, and ask what inhabits these brightest places. They will shift, but they will be present wherever kissed by the radiance. They are much illumined.

Keep looking. See where the light falls, and know that this makes a difference, not only to your vision, but to those places where it is most intense. It may be in reflection, it may be in direct sunshine, look around to the brightest places.... keep looking.

"Oh, Great and Wonderful One, He who brings this Light: the Light, not in symbol, but in actuality - where should we be, without this intensity? I am humbled, I am grateful, I rejoice in this vision granted. And I know that help is at hand wherever Thy Radiance falls.

Pure Light, why do I take thee for granted? Why have I cared not to see you? I look to all else, that by your Power is made known to me; but not at the actual Light itself - the brightest part of the Light."

Look, really look, into those places lit so brightly. By contrast we may experience those places where the light is at its brightest - it is the very contrast that enables us to do so, and it would be hard to imagine a world without contrast, if all images were indeed the same, without the palette of gradient light.