The haloic light shines forth,
Brightening the countenance within,
And enlightening the countenance without.
JUST as a computer works digitally upon a principle of 0 and 1, so it is (only far more intelligently) that Nature does also deliver her design upon a principle of oscillating contrast; and that is of light as it touches the darkness.
Here is where it becomes unique, right from the offset, right here in the start…
in the beginning… for Light itself is Thought.
This Thought is not just the mere yet wonderful, substance of thought, not just the fabric and fiber of thought. It has origins, it has qualities, it holds its own defining characteristics as it was given out…divine thought with varying latitudes.
So from this very statement we already may concur that not all light is the same, but in point of fact, different. There are individual signatures to that which emanates through the light. As well as that there may also be perceptibly, one continuous stream of light; however the qualities of it are ever-changing and redefining.
Not one thing is static in nature, or fixed for any permanent length of time. Light itself will respond to its environment spiritually, kinetically and sympathetically, as well as being driven by an original consciousness; and the environment is responsive to it.
Added to this there can be changeovers even in the differential. For example: as a human thinker I radiate out a light (a halo) from the concepts I draw to myself and examine, and even once in a while am creative with also. Now plainly that might be one type of imbued light that then comes from me, in this thinking that is self-consciously motivated.
Now in a moment we will also explore the various parts of the person which contain and emanate light, but for now we will for this example, place ourselves in our heads with the simple dialogue of daily thinking. However, with even this daily thinking we find that there are thoughts coming into us very quickly, albeit briefly, during our waking dialogue.
These thoughts which travel in, rapidly pass back out along with the same light that also comes from us. It may be that they come in directly from the presence of another (spoken or unspoken, it does not make a difference) or from an invisible presence unbeknown by us, or from the beings of the light that convey the wisdoms from afar that we have been seeking through our inquiring. We have all manner of input as you can imagine, and if you could discern the light from a man you would find that just as many influences travel upon it collectively as do travel with him.
Now when it comes to the spiritual beings that project forth light into the higher natures of the cosmic fields, these too will have varying content, and many lesser and greater influences will travel upon their light as well. So there is a quality of perpetual change to this process which smoothly continues throughout each conveyance.
Yet having now touched upon this notable, we have complicated ourselves a little out from the simple greatness of the first idea, and that was of light being Thought in the first place.
Though I be simple when compared to that great mind
I am yet to become,
I still regard intelligence with respect, regard and wonder,
When my eyes search for answers,
When my own darkness is made light again,
I am filled with a happiness at knowing.
We do not have to be thinking ourselves to experience light - whether it be the light that illumines what we then see by it, or the light which streams out from the consciousness of others, or the very soul life of others. Now we come to another turn within the paradigm…and that is to say that there are various forms of thoughts and thinking, as well as the light which does manifest them. As men and women we can "think" in various parts of our body and self, distinct from the thinking and cognizing in the self-conscious parts of the mind.
Firstly we can begin this part by asking to define the term "thinking". Its root origin meant "to go back and forth", which is interesting because that phrase does not imply necessarily going further. The Ancients (if you had asked them) would have stressed emphatically that any and all thinking never encountered new realms, creative realms, possibilities which had not already been known before. Thought pre-exists our thinking it. There was no "going further" because it was already there - even though we might imagine that we ourselves had not been there before. Regardless of all of this and the philosophy one might counter-argue today, the actual motion of thinking truly is one of "going back and forth and back and forth" in the process of examination and discernment.
The mind's eye might see, yet the being is enveloped in expanding and contracting through every encounter met with (holy focus). Responding to something before us involves ourselves in a 'waltz' of reaction; and without wanting to become too tied up in mixed metaphors which are not translating dutifully, the point of this piece is moreso to say that the thinking process itself is an oscillating practice. Often people comment that they need to 'think' when deciding something, and in point of fact we are undecided in everything we actually think about, for once we are decided we do not think about it anymore. This is not to say that we cannot go back and 'look' at whatever it was we felt decided about, but that decision is a form of sleep for thought.
Thought is active and busy by nature. It thrives on contrast, is ever moving, and many folk can be buffeted around by this activity without necessarily being able to control the activity and what it may be doing to them (and to others).
Not all thought needs to be ended or calmed at all. It does need to be productive, useful, creative, inspiring, helpful and healing - not necessarily just 'positive', because positive can be negative when it is misplaced or selfish.
There are forms of thinking which are definitely destructive, and forms of non-thinking which are equally stupefying and full of death forces to all around. False thinking, agitated thinking, erroneous thinking, lascivious thinking - all of this 'thinking' is actually subterranean to real thinking, real cognizing, real experience and real light.
Human beings are capable of this pseudo-practice of going backward and forth which becomes so repetitive and predictable that it is long outworn into its own one single movement! The thinking is taken over by the astral processes and continues on there without present day stimulation necessarily, or reality based ideas. The astrality is so competent at maintaining these repetitive thoughts in the defective thinker that it can continue on even after death, thinking and expressing the same ideas over and over.
Such thinking can be based in various organs of the body, being either a useful cognitive process or a destructive one. Even with the most handicapped of people it is very noticeable as to the interior nature of that person, as to whether they are affable or conceited, generous or aggressive - and this nature is very telling about the individual, regardless of their intellectual competency. It also determines whether or not the thinking of that individual will be given to an astrality which aids or an astrality which dominates the thinking.
In the best-most possible context, we can and do think within our various organs - once again emanating a light out from this thinking - in ways which are harmonious and generous to the entire system we carry. This thinking is also connected to a 'knowing' which the various organs individually do hold, properties for each of us to assist us in our experience of many states of being. The lungs, the liver, the heart, the womb etc. are not just perfunctory to a walking animal that needs solely to digest, excrete and breathe. Our physiological systems are there as spiritual organs firstly, providing spiritual perceptors and conducts for our negotiation of life here and beyond. Parallel to realms of great importance outside of our own natures, these places within us are conjoined, yet individually quite conscious centers, each within their own points of foci.
Now the consciousness is not self-conscious and nor are we usually drawn into them with our self-conscious awareness. Many yogic techniques try and do achieve this, however it is not recommended because simply put, if you put your mind effectively into your stomach, it will become as the stomach, because you have willed it to do so. This can affect the personality; it can begin processes which no longer identify with the mind, the divine mind or the heart.
To some in the West, contemplation to the point of 'non-thinking' is held as something honorable. But non-thinking is only experienced as being a relief to those who find themselves compulsively thinking poorly. Folk who think well or high, seldom seek time out from their good thinking or see this as a condition to be worked for!
Non-thinking was never the objective of the East, even though disassociation may have been. So we can see the confusion here; if not also the truth. Can one achieve true thinking with disassociation and is it recommended?
The answer here of course is 'no ', but it was interesting to visit it for a moment. False thinking is riddled with disassociation and is a keynote to the calamity itself. And yes, the word 'riddled' is also specific to this problem! Riddles come from disassociation also. We may think that riddles exist outside of ourselves within themselves, and this also is true; yet if we entertain a riddle and need to remedy it, then the answer (as always) can only be found within our own truth.
Riddles plague the conscious and the unconscious and can find lodging in many dark places within the body as well (waiting to have the light of thought put upon them, so that they can be identified, known and finally answered) and these riddles will always be rerouted if they are taken into association and made accountable there.
You see, the 'I am' of Man, the Arterial Self and the Christly Individual Self, all have the power over every riddle ever presented in the past, present or future. Riddles do not own Man. Riddles are the thinking processes in shadow, going backwards and forwards indefinitely without the light of the Master about them. Riddles are the Black Holes of thought!
In one sense it could be maintained that all things are a riddle and not to be fully comprehended by Man. Yet this is not the case in experience. Firstly we are very capable of deciding (putting thoughts to sleep, i.e. giving them up to the heavenly worlds) any matter. Our whole range of operandi is subjective necessarily. Having said that, our experience and knowing also comes from and is linked to the greatest Authority presiding. What we cannot know is known for us. Through Him we can know all things. If we really seek something self-consciously to know, we will eventually come to the answer.
However, the riddles which cause upset and illness within a person are usually the variety of unanswerables which exist because the individual themselves has willfully chosen not to answer them. The thought has turned into darkness because the Master has withdrawn, the consciousness and the 'I am' of the individuality has taken their own sense of self out of the matter.
Thus the disassociation is causal to the problem. It may be that there is a negligence here, that the individual is refusing to really address a particular problem; or it could be that they believe it more noble to have little or no self interest. But where self-interest begs to be heard, where the 'I am' or individuality or soul is afflicted, there will be this ongoing riddle awaiting attention - needfully and with good reason. When the light of thought is finally given to this ongoing question, if the heart is listened to and the personal preference made, the riddle dissolves completely.
On a larger scale the 'riddle of the universe' can be applied to in such a way also. How often people lack the faith in their own knowing! It is exclaimed "Oh! But how can we know?" and this implies no one can know etc., and one could say this is true - how can we know anything? But spiritually, we know we can know, don't we?
We can challenge our own knowing and others with doubts and derision or good questionings etc. but we do have a firm knowing that decides even this. If our premise however, begins with us not being able to decide or know anything, then we are committed to an outcome which is self-determining. If our premise is hopeful we have at least skipped the bounds of the biggest riddle of all and are heading off on our way to some discovery! (With a little lamp hopefully.)
You mentioned before three types of self which I took to be all the same, can you please explain?
- 'I am' of Man,
- The Arterial Self,
- and the Christly Individual Self.
The 'I am' of Man is the highest egoic condition of the individual, upright and quite perfect, Christ-given, of Christ and of pure integrity. If we begin to search and sense our 'I am-ness' this integrity helps us to have faith in our own decision making processes and helps us to come to egoic stances which otherwise may not have been possible. In the lowest context there can be self righteous behavior, but even this sense of selfhood comes from intrinsic goodness being known and acted upon in mind. The 'I am' is beingness in absolute fact and it is indestructible, through the power of Christ being woven through it - our core of being.
The Arterial Self is a work in progress, the work in progress of ourselves ongoing. There are pure elements of the 'I am' manifesting through the Arterial Self, but primarily its/our referral is with Father God. This is the deciding part of the conscious self which gets to choose the many planes of consciousness we frequent.
You could say that the 'I AM' is Christ in us.
The Arterial Self is our Father with us.
The Christly Individual Self pertains to a respectful mystery in which He dwells in each of us differently. The globe of the many Christs, this Earth could be deemed! Beyond even the ego is an overall spiritual being that is you. Again we name this being through Christ, but also it is different (in truth) to any other spirit existing in the living cosmos, local or forever. This is privy to our innermost knowings and yearnings - and here is the provision for true choosing. It will always be ours as long as we maintain to keep it.
You mentioned the heart before, being listened to as a remedy for riddles, but you have not really said why?
If you asked the heart it would tell you that it really is involved in all aspects of your being, including your thinking. It would warmly respond with much loving rebuff if you suggested that it was not part of any decision or thought that passed by. In fact, we are heart driven. Our souls incarnate daily through the heart - the spiritual organ of the heart, not the physical.
When it is said that a man should consult his heart etc. what is meant is that he is consciously, arterially, reviewing himself through consultation with Father God. At any point we can decide things through this endeavor. Our links to our Father are twenty-four hours a day. Interestingly this knowledge is not one that is necessarily qualified through the light of thought at all. Our pathways to Father God and the subsequent experiences need not be carried to us or through us via thought. There is a higher reasoning, but a peace which is of the heavenly realm rather than involved in the action of incarnating or going backwards and forth.
Once again our sense of self from this is different. If we are to find our 'I am' it may be through difficulties, contrasts, conflicts, tests - situations where we are pitched into being quite uncomfortable, yet from all of this contrast we are enstrengthened and then decided. The 'I AM' is further known and formed by the differences without it - the self-conscious awareness examining things and being prepared to go back and forwards in healthy thought and deliberation.
Having said that, no man should place himself in a situation where he has compromised his own 'I AM' by enduring a constant battering of it! At all times we are duty bound to ourselves to sanction whether we go or whether we stay, and never consent to or permit ill-treatment upon ourselves. Healthy conflict is enormously different to violence. Violent behavior does not strengthen the ego suffering it, but rather assaults it.
The worse damage that can be done is when the person who is imposed upon does suffer it and thereby refuses their selfhood for the sake of some evil. We are responsible to our own egos and to the egos of others to expect and give out a certain quality of nature which is kindly and careful. If folk mistreat your good-naturedness in an attempt to rule your will or take from you your sense of 'I AM' by being violent or demanding in their behavior, then there becomes a misgiving of wills between the two, and an illness occurs within each being. The sufferer and the sufferee worsen each other through their mutual part and responsibility to the drama so created in this constant aggravation. Often what was once great love can turn into vehemence because there has become a corruption of the heart and 'I AM' within the terms of living. People cannot be expected to go against themselves, yet even when they do in an effort to appease and please with appearance if nothing else, it is sensed by the other and resented. When there becomes a contest of wills there is much suffering. The contest will not cease because the conditions simply do not fit the demands. If this is the case no amount of pretence will suffice - especially when the happiness and 'lightness' has in evidence gone from the heart and the relationship.
Yet when we go via the heart arterially to find our Father's perspective, the thoughts are instantly sopified (as in soporific)…and we are calmed and decided etc. Therefore, if riddles are the problem and are haunting and daunting and overwhelming, prayer to Father God is the very first remedy, and then listening to what the heart tells you follows through.
One should be reminded here that Father God does love you remarkably. It is also reasonable that you should care for yourself as well. Each to his own as they say. Negation of self is a blasphemy.
Herein is another clue about that prayer which might be ineffective when it comes to riddles - that if there is disassociation involved then the person is not really arterially presenting in prayer at all. It is a little like knocking on a door and then running away. If we do not 'come as we are' into heaven, we cannot be recognized. It is vital that we keep ourselves in the picture at all times and it is significant to Father God and to Christ how we feel, wish and want about things. Sometimes folk go to prayer in such a spirit of generosity they forget to also pray for themselves. It can be that there is much guilt in asking for what is needed or desired, and this too holds people back from confessing their sadnesses. Yet a conundrum can be unconundered so easily if given over to Him!
This is not really even a joke. Especially when it comes to presenting in person as the person we really are. Passing into the spiritual worlds you do really see thousands of look-alikes through association. There will be thousands - yes, thousands of Princess Dianas for example, thousands of Saint Patricks too - because the individual has worn association all of their lives, instead of their self within their makeover! (Yes, and Elvises, dear.)
There is not a thought in the world which was not originally good.
A living thought,
A living light.
A piece of a greater ray.
And thus it is, that if someone is telling you something which is dear to them, there may well be some of that sunlight or starlight within it.
This is also the provision for the Christly individuality.
It does not reduce the Universal system to an anarchy,
but it does give its blessing to every perspective.
You exact us in Your Keeping,
Enabling and enlivening,
We earnestly thank You,
And pray ourselves worthy
Of our continument.