Condemnation & Charity- 9th December 1991

Whilst men dig graves for other men,
And women bring the new life in;
How busy we are, how busy we be,
How short the longest life,
How long our misery.

THERE are two types of condemnation: one is conversant, by which experience measures fault and future mistake; whilst the other is but an uneducated bias, which is all too quick with bile and venom, and judgment which is extraordinarily unfounded. Therefore if we are to judge wisely and correctly it is as former sinners who have fallen from Grace herself. Whether by firsthand recollection or by imprint on memory lost to a former age, nonetheless the guilt and blood past spent has left its remorse and admonishments upon us. 

Were we to judge and proclaim our innocence complete, then we would be misrepresented; and mistaken also in gauging our brother's future regret. Therefore we perceive all men to be holy, with none other so perfect as to be compared with the Father. Rather, we are all with guilt and folly and all of splendid origins. Here lies great and greater paradox. Here we may enjoy humility and yet disgrace.

No one man may pride himself on a glory surpassing his brother; no one may endure without the love and leverage, the grace and forgiveness of his kin and King. Who may be truly exalted, and beyond tears? Tears for those misguided and tears of triumphs to come. We do not lay down our face in the mud that others may not soil their feet. Conversely, we do not seek to walk on the backs of the fallen. Greater happinesses are to be found in the most humble and holy of recognitions.

Condemnation which calls not from the conscience, is self which has met with the trials of martyrdom, and made weak by the actions of destruction and denial. Those men who spit and defile the sacred imaginings, who scorn and scoff and know not the slightest of true repentance - these we must pray for; and pray for we might, for they are sorry and forlorn, stupid to the heavenly world and the presence of God.

Men would seek to steal with vanity vain that which is most worthless, and cannot beg and address He on high for that which would be given to sustain them. Where is the sensibility? Where is the cherished love for humanity? That we should put more credence in folly filled exploits and give over to impermanent passions which beguile and distort and make feeble the gentle empowered constitution?

Charity is a gentle soul indeed. She asks for nothing, she is steadfast and with fortitude. She is so developed that she may bring many a gift; not the least being motivation to those she has tended. For those who implore Charity, calling forth on behalf of others, are tended to also - infilled with her sweet presence. Much is made known to them who are faithful servants to her calling, for it is she who has domain over many a secret and a wisdom.

Those who seek kingdoms may be content with regions of swamp where the cold-blooded reptilians slither and slosh. But they may not know of those places which are truly marvelous and well worth exploring. They may not be shown entrance or pass into realms given over to great dreams, worlds whereupon visions are made and become manifest, worlds of substance: dream-substance, dreams of inspiration not of fancy. If they would but consult Charity and heed her slight ways, then perhaps these worlds would become apparent and made known . . .

Goodness, Greatness & Glory- 20th November 1991

SURELY with clarity, we do not perceive our troubled lot; for if we knew such sad predicament we would be forlornly dashed irrevocably. Moreover still, as we endure with enhanced fascination and untiring curiosities, we also lack grave insights as to the true order of magnificent glory in which we are haloed and bathe in daily. For as indicated, extremes are never so desirous- extremes that would shatter and break apart a man in the very sensing. So we quietly have knowing which is both linked but separate, distinct from the experience of such enlightenment.

We are cast into abstraction and extraction to distill and purify the potent expressions of our innermost and outermost being. We come into a life that is all consuming; our consciousness is bound for a term with only the sweet relief that slumber brings. We are so enmeshed in both subtle and blatant actualities that our thoughts may be stern one moment and flip the other, and our duality of inner man coupled with earthly consciousness walks the world semi-incognito.

Outer dance is inner joy manifest. Outer song expressed is active creation fulfilled.

The grey and sullen tones that conspire from the tongues of the dubious and the doubt-filled, that lack the resonance of he who would truly be in clarity, are dull and listless and without reflection. Whilst the higher strivings of an awakening soul who maintains that perplexity is no deterrent to his efforts of perception, the man who at best is defiant of the doubting ways - those doubting ways which are negligent of beauty, but brimful of conceit - at worst is humbled by this his unknowing.

If we fail or we falter it is not because we are frail and unwary, nor is it because we are unloved. For all failure as perceived through these our earthly eyes is but skip and joy to our highermost being, who is ever mindful of further opportunities made possible with greater consequences.

There can be no delight derived from sorrow, not even that of our own, but there can be delight in the fruit and the promise which specifies that all sorrow will pass and touches not our true being. That the days ahead are much the brighter; and if we have ever come to know of great happiness, if only briefly have we kissed the cheek of her loveliness, then surely we must be patient and expectant of her coming again.

Remorse and deep regret are imprinted on each soul stained with misgivings of error and immorality. We all share the questions which cannot set the past aright within the very spectrum of what has been. Only may we address such regret in future callings which will and do present themselves again. In this we have great hope and sense; and time is limitless for all of this to be resolved.

Know then peace in times of struggle. Acknowledge yes, the outer world constantly and meet all obligations faithfully. And when the earth crumbles away, know the fortitude that comes only with a strong regard for that which is truly essential and enduring.

Be shameful of your sins, but not so completely that that you deny your divinity. Give to each man similar regard. For we will all be made bare, as bare and as beautiful as the babes who enter into the world, held tight as we tremble in the bosom of Heaven's sweet nurture.

Keys- 16th November 1991

ONE thing is but an increment of another. Colors and sounds, moods and associations, are all incremented, and are what they are through relationship to fellow increments - all being distinctly a part of a greater unit containing. Through various means, artificial or revelatory, we may come to sense the common unity, the family, of that which one single part in large comprises. This recognition may be wholesome or awesome, depending on our abilities of control over such an awareness.

A simple notation of music is discriminatory, whilst the family of sound from whence all notes are derived, is as one sound. The one sound is overwhelming to one's differentiation and perturbing to particulars.

And so we might establish that there are two discernible realities:

1. Being the family host, as single expression.

2. The particulars, incremented and extracted from the main expression.
This is concurrently understood by each and every one of us, save that the impact of the 'whole' of any one, cannot be so readily identified within our absorption thereof.

As with every heavenly manifestation there is earthly counterpart with physical representation, even though one might argue that physical representation is of singular particulars - and that is what deems it so. 

So where might we find the physical representation of a parent color or parent sound? And are they to be experienced as is? Where should we hide our solemn treasures on this terrain? The alchemist knows, and does extract color - all manner of colors - out from the one material. Light, blessed light, is the parent from which all colors are extracted; and mysteriously, we find gems a'colored deep in rock, and so secluded, babes in womb, all rosy pink - and this tells us something more of the nature of light and its permeations.

Sound is contained within physicality. Physicality is of course quite 'soundless' to the ears, however that which we understand to be sound is nonetheless extracted out from physical manifestation, firstly and not secondly. Physicality is sound condensed - whole sound, parent sound, being as a well for all chords and syntax.

Similarly Christ is Man, in whole and complete parent manifestation. All multifold aspects of our experience, are of His experience and are extracted from His being.

From the four elements we are truly born: the ether, the earth, the fire and the water; all being reactive to each, all expressive of divine determination; all being impulse, essential to the manifestation of host parent and particular. These four elements so described are what they are, as parent representations (physically) of said impulses; not of the impulses themselves, nor of the many and various extractions therefrom, but rather, simply our perceived counterparts of such. For there are keys laid about most everywhere.

We live in a system which is kind to investigation, one which contains its secrets, but does not deny us them. They are not withdrawn, but are as heavenly linkages there for interpretation would that we understood their speak, would that we were to hold the right perception.

A true symbol is such a key - a key to that which it is; and holds for further extraction that which is self-explanatory and is profoundly divisible.

Money- 12th November 1991

ONE DAY they'll impregnate money so they'll know where it is - in some instances they have already done this, pre-empting bank heists and kidnaps.

People are easily traced by the path of the money that has been exchanged. It is an interesting thought as to how many places, how many hands have held one single coin; and the circumstances surrounding the transactions, and the stories of the men from whom the coin has passed to and from.

Folk are never concerned about the data which is accumulated or the numbers which are allotted and attached to such information, when it comes to records of expenditure and account. They are suspicious of 'other' related pieces of information and other numbers so given, but accept it freely when seeking out the usual plastic or cheque accounts. It is laughingly stated that the way to a man's heart is through his stomach - it is certainly a way to a man's identity: his account number.

The monetary system is a much larger issue than one might suppose. The concepts of credit and the practice of artificial wealth and subsequent class structures, underlies much of that which affects the day to day lifestyles of every man, woman and child on the planet today.

The first consideration of a man is usually that of money. His whole life, his preoccupation, his dedication, is often pointed to the accumulation of either simple mainstay or out and out wealth - and whatever the case, it is still a question of money. The reasons may be simple enough, or complex and unrelated, but the system of exchange and identity therefrom, is in place and imposed, and larger than any one can struggle to be free from.

All of this so far may sound to be quite obvious, and if misinterpreted, leading towards some communistic ideology. However if one can shake themselves awake for a moment, and view it as it is, they shall be quite amazed at the enormity of this entity which, if made visible, would overshadow and terrify even the most complacent of men.

Perhaps one might come to see that the second 'falling out' from the Garden, was of the 'selling of the apple'. We are so obliged to think in terms of trade and price-tags, that we are incapable of envisualizing any other society of dissimilar bent. Fortunately however, all of the important and relevant exchanges from one to another, are without monetary measure and exchange - and so concurrently we are always working within the two differing relationships.

Many an ascetic of the past has had revelation of the great monetary spirit, and sought immediate detachment therefrom. Often when individuals study such men, they believe that it has been an elaborate act of sacrifice for those who have cast away the values of men, and the wealth that has been so attached to their person. In this one could truly say that there was certain sacrifice, and yet also much gain as well - a freedom that was so necessary and wished for, a freedom which cannot be bought by simple loss- that one great transaction in which it all was flung away.

There are many insights as to the monetary beast when one examines the actions and intent of those who gamble. Through these people who have shafted away the superfluous relationship of money to the tangible and sought money only, we may examine the true effect of such a system, and a reality of concerns. Some might argue that the nature of a gambler is the basest example of an otherwise semi-perfect system, but it is rather essential to the concept and explicit in definition.

Were that values were based upon the need of all and charity throughout in answer to such need, there should not be the system of monetary exchange. This is simple fact. In Heaven one may profit from another, in due course, as a result of a certain interaction - but not because profit was sought firstly, and not as determined by either party, and not at the expense of another. The monetary beast is a perversion of the true order. One may speak money first, and then the rest follows (if at all). Also, the profit so come by in Heaven is not merely representational of worth- the value is what it is, and is not ever derived or spent artificially. This is again a perversion.

It is no wonder that men are confused. Recompense as perceived is illusive - they place all reward for effort in a box or a bank, and as the sands, it may shift from them all too easily. This is frustrating and upsetting, if one truly is taken in by this system of reward.

Although somewhat simplistic, it is important to recognize our upsets and our oppositions. It is alike to every problem which faces man, that one alone cannot eradicate it, and until it has been cleansed away from every one, each are to be affected, like it or not. It is an insipid evil that compels every man in such a way, for it strikes at the very level of necessity whilst jeopardizing the moral judgments - an unsavory bedfellow that is 'put up with' or welcomed.

Money itself however, gives nothing back to a man, whatsoever of itself. Man is continually cheated, and understands not why. If he is compromised into re-using his wealth, he is compromising his brother; if he is happy to keep it, as result of some work or some trade, he has lost that which he exchanged for a secondary abstract which of itself is valueless. It has value only unto the laws of its own dictates - and even these fluctuate. It does not give man a steady relationship with the produce of his own actions, and it confuses the natural world and its paradise to be secondary to it rather than the other way around. Too much or too little- it is charged with desire. And many a woe and illness is spawned from this dilemma.

Worse still, there is no immediate remedy which will relieve men of this economic condition, and coerce a society to regain freedom from this world-perception. Therefore one can look to the personal aspects and learn to counter such impulses locally, with conscious recognition where possible.

Firstly we are to cleanse ourselves of false notions, to drive them out, so to speak, in order that we may proceed with greater clarity.

The first false notion in respect to the beast is:

1. "If I had enough money I could buy what I want." Money does not effect exchange, even if we view it as an intermediary, an inter-language. Money of itself does nothing. It buys nothing. It is nothing. It is without value. It is deceptive. It promises deception. If another were to give you that which you want because of an exchange of money, then you are karmicly compelled to accommodate and recompense the fellow at a later time, and no amount of coin will change this. That he has effected a change within your life and taken the banknote will not alter this. The debt is still there, and debt it is. However, the land or the grain or whatever the purchase, is not solely his in the first instance - however the availability has been offered, and the service thereby is recompensable.

2. "Money is representative of worth". Money is deceptive of worth, and can never reflect value in real terms. There is no essential reality. There are passions instilled into the beast which underlies the exchange and efforts of men who endeavor to seek out unity with said beast, but there is no real representation, only false promise. There can never be satisfaction in the receiving of money. There is heartache and loss, and a want of replacement. If one is to give a gift freely there is much happiness and good consequence of this. If one deals in exchange, there is sorrow from both parties. Because the monetary system has laws completely contained of its own, which are unrelated to realities, it has no bearing on equality of values or true representation. The monetary values float and disfigure in relation to their own, solely. Also, they are beneath true value - and have no relation to consequences of exchange. All physical goods and services are transitory, and provide certain environmental changes in respect to the individual at that moment. There are complex consequences affording this. There are times when those who impart goods for money actually end up owing he who they imparted the goods to, i.e. if I sell something which is detrimental to the individual and causes further malady I am answerable, and must make compensation at some further time. Again, this is irrespective of money and is negotiated by higher laws. In point of fact, if anything it is made worse because of the transaction of money. The reason being that I might ask of a man for something and he obliges - unknowing that it is to my detriment to supply it - however if I desire something from this man, and am obliging him with great self interest being first concern, then I am especially implicated in his demise.


3. "Money is a necessary evil". No evil is necessary. We may be obliged to work within a system, and in this instance there is no escape from the physical exchange and operation, but we do not have to deem it as necessary. For it shall not be the way of future societies, and it is dangerous to even talk laughingly about 'necessary evils' - there is no such thing. Whoever said that devils were ugly? The most dangerous devils are those which we all desire - and in this instance, we are all in part entrapped. Where do people imagine devils and demons to be? They are not all without disguise. If one must cohabit with the devil, it is better to see him as is. With further insights of this nature, one may begin afresh to sort out those undesirous inclinations which lend themselves moreover to his ways and methods.


4. Detachment from money - "I do not care for it, I only use it." This of itself is untrue, also wishful and perhaps presumptuous. The poor rarely say this, and those with wealth have no credibility at best, with such exclamation.

If we are made bare by acknowledging certain false notions, and repenting such, in effort for cleansing peculiar to them, then we may begin to make for counter-impulses which may now lead forth into a wild and unfriendly economic whorl of a world. The tides are so immense and enormously proportioned, that no one man may stand against them on this their own level. However, one may rise above them in conceptual compromise - living a paradoxical existence as it were.

If we are to constantly review our own attitudes, and especially within these realms aforementioned, then we may begin to work different relationships with those who we may have future dealings with. To be aware of our responsibilities in these regards is ever important, and a wonderful step into future society. The nature of the monetary beast is one of deception; that we should be anything but aware of our true interactions and values.

By this awakening of insight we begin to counterbalance certain untruths. No one man may escape his debts to another - and to try to do this is of itself, irresponsible and uncharitable. We may welcome all relationships and the fruit thereby.

So, not to make too much of poverty or wealth, but begin a new perspective, which speaks of relativity and true value. Especially preparing for those times when the tangible will become intangible, and the intangible shall be ever more real. 

The lascivious beast/demon of monetary exchange cannot abide charity, or gifts freely given. He holds onto the backs of every man and hugs tight - you can almost feel him, with arms wrapped around your chest, with hand over heart, with claw in side. Thank God for goodwill and that loving charity, that we all may spread, even in the smallest measure, and thereby release his grip and slough him off - and sigh with relief that he is only as strong and as great as our greed.