Waiting for Spring- 9th April 1999

THERE are a variety of ways a man can present himself in the world, and with ordinary means it is most difficult to determine whether or not the inner development is consistent and causal to the display we are shown.

A man may appear inordinately affectionate or disaffectionate, yet the soul/egoic condition be remarkably the same. Unless one is gifted with an exceptional perception it is difficult and even dangerous to attempt a causal judgment of any other. Supposing is not reliable. The mystery of a man is given to a privacy within his own permits and is for no other to know, unless asked to do so. Even a spiritual emeritus has not by qualification alone, been afforded the right to make suppositions about the condition of another's interior self.

Therefore we are cautioned to this before attempting even the broadest of discernments as to the character (or displacement thereof) of another. Having said that, we can endeavor to study that which may pertain to our own natures, and assist with others' studies. As students in common, we can come to this work out from out own dilemmas and problematical inquiries, with such an honesty of validity to be had in the subjective, that we may be guided by a self-assessment, instead of an abject judgment of another.

And so we now continue:
There is a useful proverb:

The clearer the pane, the sharper the glass.

Today's discussion will try to examine the several contributing factors in that of the esoteric student who has lost much kindness to criticism in that process of sharpening his consciousness through observation and discrimination. Such characteristic coldness can come from:

1. Refined sensibilities whereby the inner tolerance & outer resistance have been compromised by an all too swift development

Development of any kind is rarely manifest in equal apportions of progressiveness. Nature spurts and spills, with shoots and runners, propelling into life when the decision is so made. We go from 'nothing', to bud, to blossom, and each stage is so very distinct it may almost appear unrelated to the preceding one. Coming in from a spiritual design, out from the originating realms, much appears 'all of a sudden' with all episodes clearly contrasting one another as they further the reality. Of course much time aforehand may well contribute to the eventuality we experience; however, even that time is not equally represented.

There is nothing equal about development, and for that matter, there are no in-betweens (unless you count those periods of 'non-being' when manifestation is withdrawn entirely).

Further to this, in certain conditions both without and within, an individual may be subjected to an accelerated stride of new attainment. This is not uncommon amongst those who have re-entered upon the path and come to realize their inner preferences there. Phenomenally a man need not awaken into the spiritual work at any particular age, especially when karmic duties have called his attentions within the worldly activities requiring him to participate to the very fullest aforehand. It may well be that much later in life he consciously begins to 'catch up' to those inner knowings he worked for in previous lifetimes, and then seemingly 'all of at once' he has changed remarkably.

In reaction to this spirituality now come upon them, there is also a quickening of perception, as well as the subliminal material now conversing along with the awakened inner sensibilities. New experiences rush in to greet this consciousness, as the ego also extends its call out into the world to truly know it - wishing to investigate and cohabit with substance, fellow and god.

This is a special time therefore of compromise occurring, when the mainframe constitution accordingly reacts to the now new tensions straining to meet with the excessive life. Conjunctures are responsive all over the being; comprehension is attempted, signatures are sought after, curiosity enlivens and then, understandably, it stops.

It is a magnetic anomaly, yet also an astral gastritis. Too much too quickly and we begin to evacuate even before the necessary processing. We can see individuals who have gone from mundane to enlivened and then into nihilism resulting ... and from this position there can be then two ways to go.

If the enlivening was self-earned then the man or woman will begin to reassert themselves in relation to the spirituality, and the 'coldness' to the world will thaw with the warmth of their true inner life restabilizing itself once again in respect to its natural audacities.

If the enlivening was artificially induced then the indifference will continue.

 2. Beings of complicity complicating religiosity with pseudo-seriousness

Wherever there is a body of men working together there are also the beings who oversee that one body, and come to rely energetically upon the efforts of that group. With spiritually placed organizations there can be very protective beings who begin their wardship as faithful, deliberate hosts. They attend and cooperate at gatherings, they inspire a like-mindedness and shadow feeling of fellowship; they may become great and useful providers of much truth shared and experienced (partially creating the spiritual realities they promulgate).
However, such beings do not encompass the human empathies. They may be very powerful and persuasive as far as their divine knowledge is inspiring (there are dark path entities also, but we are speaking of the goodly variety) and yet, because they are limited to a 'higher' perspective as it were, they are all too distant from the condition of men.

Now in Anthroposophy there can be such a dedication to the leading being of the inner society that the very sensitive of individuals who are pouring themselves into the work are becoming responsive to its 'higher nature' in such a way that they are divorcing out from the world in general. This is not to say that they are no longer effectual within their lives and loves etc. But it can be seen in countenance and attitude that many are disabled from some aspects of individual character, replacing it with an assumed sense of divinity. 

This being is not that of Dr. Rudolf Steiner, and nor is it the Elijah Spirit* which he himself has emulated. It does not belong with the Rosicrucian stream (a rowdy bunch at best); and in principle does not belong with the future episodes ahead of Man as entertained by Christ.

This can be proven in respect firstly to the exclusive nature of the Society Being, as promulgated by its recipients. Formally it is an entified organization, and this being was called in during the first gatherings of the Esoteric Section with the precise purpose of setting such ordinances in place, and keeping them there.

This detachment may well be preferred and chosen by those who participate. It is not, in itself, irrevocable, and in many respects it affords a great comfort for those sensitive individuals who are trying to make their way in the world, negotiating the many forces within.

In relation to point one, it can be understood how rapidly a soul can wish for some stability to invisibly set their axis upon, that the influx of new experiences and information can cause an ancillary need which may then be answered by the providence of that governing angel whose wings we may ride upon with inspiration, with such divine love akin to its kind.

A. Rosenkrantz 

This is no criticism but comment, to say also that the Man-Wisdom Anthroposophia, is coincidentally supported and maintained with an invisible presence which is not of Man. We do not believe that the strength of this being's effect was predecided. It is noble, it is determined, but limited in conveying much of the human condition as it exists today about the Globe.

Seriousness and gaiety do go hand in hand. The very lightness of spirit pertains to gravity as known. The better informed an individual is, the more capable he is of true seriousness. Experience, study, empathetic reasonings and resultant love, all bring the ego of Man closer to the reality without. This knowing of reality, in turn, makes a man strong. Such strength then offers

• resistance (when chosen);
• discrimination (re-identifying)
• and comprehension (an expanded consciousness).

We are better equipped with our humanity if we are understanding it. We are less likely to shy away from those aspects which appear overwhelming to our inner sensibilities if we have won some resistance, discrimination and mindfulness about ourselves.

It would be perilous to believe ourselves and solely ourselves, to be so strong or comprehensive so as not to need the assistance and guidance of the higher beings in all that we do. It would be equally misplaced if we bethought ourselves tough enough to resist the many incoming forces and entities that would try us tomorrow, were it not for the protection of Christ and His emissaries.

But what we are saying here is that the emphasis within the operating consciousness of the Society can prove itself too persuasively geist-like, rather than of Man.

[*Elias Artista: Elijah the Artist:

Nothing is concealed that shall not be revealed. There are many more secrets concerning the transmutation, though they are little known, for if they are revealed to someone their fame is not immediately common. With this art, the Lord bestows the wisdom to keep it secret until the advent of Elias Artista. Then shall be revealed what has been concealed.
- Paracelsus, Book Concerning the Tincture of Philosophers]

The Conference with Vanity- 1st April 1999

"Show yourself!" - His commanding words addressed the figure plainly. Reticent and cowering, the hooded intrudent moved forward.

"Speak Master Vanity, and tell me of yourself."

The creature beneath the cloak began to assume quite quickly, something of a lively confidence. It flourished its head, and then with girlish affectation, it giggled.

Christ looked on, waiting patiently for some reply. His Presence had enlivened the being and it was now most comfortably animated within its own nature. Its eyes burnt inwards, it stroked its own hair. Comfortable with the grand attention it was soaking in, it then found the appropriate moment to dramatically moan and sob.

"I am ill-understood ... my beauty is so coveted ... I am painfully envied and therefore disliked - alone in my abstract pleno [fullness/completeness]."

"Does greatness have to be recompensed with a loneliness?" Christ murmured, as if to Himself; and then, as though startled into full wakefulness He spoke with full accent upon this other:
"I have seen what may come of you within this very future, and there is much to be done, if you are to remain within my World. Do you have knowledge of that star from which your tender self resides? Will you allow me to tell you of its holy and reliable instincts? Come closer and I will show you - if you would have it my friend."

With anyone else it would have argued (unto eternity); perhaps only for attention's sake, and be so engaged with speak about itself, or for that of the fact that it had no real consideration for much outside of its mean comprehension. However, this was Christ: The Christ, our Christ. And He had come.

They said that He was received within the World, and yes it had been also so said that He was fearless! When He had gone into the many wild places of bush and wood, of river and sea, of hilltop and mountain, into the etheric paradise and then penetrating the caverns of the astral depths as well - throughout the many, many natures He had visited and passed through - they had said in report afterward, that He had played. That He did not test His Strength, but His Joy.

With a caravan of Muses there following, the mirth amongst each place thus visited was complete! Happiness kissed the cheek of each and every face so smiled upon, glad again, for if ever there was a King within the World it was this Sovereign!

Yes, it was said that He had truly met with everything, and everybody spoke well of Him. Little demons (those that were about) came into new being - the very first to wave around and jiggle into dance when He was about. Naught could be untouched by this happiness that had returned into the Earth.

But then, there were those days not so spoken of ... weren't there. Days when He grew solemn and distant and the world had felt His Hurt.

Obedient to his Master's mind, Vanity sought to lock into the understanding offered. For this was Christ, and even Vanity could not entirely be himself anymore, now having been so very closely touched by his patriarch.

"You see that star up there"- the finger pointed and a radiant light moved out from it, rapidly appearing and disappearing.

"This star is not your star, you have long been affixed incorrectly." He pondered in silent conference, and then continued, "The true Venus that you seek is now the Sun."

"Dignity!"
"Solemnity!"
"Divinity!"
"Sovereignty!"

Four columns of light (not quite as intense as a star voyager conveyer beam) appeared with prismic infusion, out of which appeared four figures. Exquisite and gracious, the four assembled before the two.

"These are your family dear one - do you not know them?"

Vanity became awkward, sensing only an inner emptiness ... and an unbearable ugliness in contrast to the party intent upon him. He had no reply to give. He felt nothing but a horrible self-pity.

Christ in that moment had healed him of an ugliness which had cankered his being e'er since it began. He had reunited him with his kind, and temporarily censured his composure.

The sadness returned ... "What was it about this God? What was my part in it all?" He wondered within, then Vanity knew. It had been his face Christ had looked into and called upon, just moments before He had been punctured, just before His Blood had soaked forth. And that was when the sadness had come ... when the gaiety had gone and the world all o'sudden went unbelievably cold. He remembered!

It was Vanity presiding when Man condemned God to die. It was Vanity present and detaining when Man humiliated the One who loved him the most. It was Vanity that had turned away and caused the Sun in its greatest grief to expire its light into the bosom of its beloved.

Christ's voice then spoke. Vanity suppressed the tears and waited in silence.

"Vanity, you are my greatest child - the naughtiest also - and yet you are still growing. Though false pride is but an empty beginning, it is still a beginning nonetheless, for within you as well, is a little of me and my unfinished work, my love and my all too eager impatience.

"Child of the Ego, you shall grow to maketh a strong and beauteous bearer of soul. Know this, that one day you shall live joyously in your true worth, and that the reality of self is truly that of God made manifest in you. Self-love shall be conceived as the love of our dear Father God; self-loving in proper consideration shall introduce you to your spirits in kind and in destiny, who share in this divinity as so come to being in you.

"Vanity, though mistaken, sorely pained and wretchedly ugly, trivial and almost empty, beguiled and ever delusional ... I still love thee. You are an innocent and in need of the guidance that I shall give. Remain with us here, and believe, for not only have I now come to be with you ...I am here to stay."

Optimum Ingravia- 30th March 1999

MEN do not need wars - it is the very concept that our finest minds entertain which may invite perils rather than detain them.

Should we ever accept or explain genocide? Whether by hand or by nature, such "transformation" occurring in global events by any form of corruption is not an event welcomed by Christ. In point of fact, it is moreover a dangerous distraction away from the truth of this Being and Presence within our Humanity.

We caution all who are specialists in their spiritual thinking to guard their attitudes with extreme vigilance, such as is quick to refute the explanations of causality, as a silent precursor to acceptance.

You see much begins and ends with us. The future worlds importantly, morph right out from the many-petalled mind of the world - and this mind is but our mind, contributed to by our finest.

We betray our brothers and sisters and that of our future selves when we presume to comprehend the transactions of war and of pestilence. In philosophy also, men may distance themselves with such 'objectivity' that argues "death is inevitable", "life in this world is transitory", "out of evil cometh good", and so forth.

Yet it is by our observation that we can say that souls may be flung into an obscurity with violent death, and disturbed out from what would have been a life from which much good could have been gleaned. But when individuals pass through the gates of death in shock, taking with them the last moments of mortal terror (experienced deeply in the body as well) the 'animal' itself is panicked and eventually torn out from its impelling desire to drive down into life - ill-prepared it desists. Then what follows for much after is the grievous condition of such insecurities that are attributable to such an event. Men are durable but not insufferable.

Optimum ingravia.

The Incarnation was an act of Love for this World. The forces which oppose this, distort and disrupt our dear Creation. But let it be said: There is no great meaning or benefaction to come from disorder, disharmony and death. We are cautioned in these remarkably potent of times to affix our meditations and subsequent propaganda on the lap of Beauty, the breast of Wisdom, the Staff of Christ and the Fatherhood of God.

Dragons of War- 1999

Mr. Yong from South Korea asks:
I really want the world of what you said, but it's not. Now I worry about my situation why all things of outside doesn’t correspond with my intention. So I can't feel any peace in my mind. Please give me a little console by your deep word.
Thank you.

Dear Mr. Yong,
These Dragons of War are old, very old, and stretch and strain at their skin, hungry to eat our new Humanity. But they cannot.

You have endured and survived and remained yourself. No death and no dragon can injure your selfhood. Disappointment can damage, but is soon quick healed as well. And the sadness for others that you feel - well, that is irreparable, this is true.

Great scholars, idealists, philosophers and peacemakers, spirits who have lived and spirits who are with us now, they all know this sadness and the incredible weight of it. It is a sadness which sings softly its melodic weeping throughout - one which we are always aware of and shall be disconsolate until the suffering ceases.

All suffering is real. Whether it be experienced here in this world or carried into the Heavens as well. And we sorrow with those who have only known so.

Beyond this great hardship there is one to whom you can go - to Christ, and if not to Him, then to Father God in prayer. In prayer you may come to reserves that cannot be found within the mental limits here. In prayer, if you ask from the heart, comfort can be known that could not find its way to you before.

You have the consolation of those who work as you do - right here with you - you may sense the presence and gain much strength from that body of men who are both holy and wise, and are not to be dissuaded by the corruptive forces at present.

We will not tell you that the calamities you perceive do not matter or do not exist, they do. We will not tell you that there is anyway you may feel good about them, for there is not. But we can tell you that they will end, and all good men will become as they rightfully should be - haloed with the forces of the Sun, in freedom, true Brotherhood and with a future filled with hope, great desire, fulfillment and love.

God bless (and keep trying Dear One),
 XXX