Breath, Breathing & the Arterial Self- 26th March 1997

THE properties of the breath and of breathing hold mysteries beyond any chemical transaction or ingestion of time. When we exhale, our breath has become personalized; and to put it most simply, one can imagine that there are as many influences of beings in the breath we inhale in the world, as there are beings, whilst we, with our uptake, work to assimilate, transform or repel each and every one of them. 

Like an infant, the breath of an advanced man will be sweet and the breath which he exudes will cleanse the world! Likewise beware the breath of the animal, the conjurer and the hypnotist, for all of these impart persuasions also. The personalized breath that lovers may share in a kiss is the most signatory influence that can physically and subtly be imparted. It is also symbolic of both their tolerance and resonance peculiar to their coupling.

Breath, as similar to fluid in soul force, has yet also combined with our ego-nature, as with our consciousness now anchored within this world. For us it means that we incarnate and excarnate repeatedly, driving down into our systems and circulating with each force of pulse. There is a personal determination which we impart upon our breathing outwardly.

If we take in ten parts Ahriman in contrast to the usual two, then we must and do meet it with ten parts humanity, as it is worked over and made thus transformed. If the man of today is met with a variant of influences in greater part, then it is answered and equaled firstly by Christ, and then working its way through the man; and is not in itself a dissuader from the process of reticulated breathing.

The system that seeks personification maintains its incarnation with this repetitive reaffirmation of self and arterial selfhood. It is considerate therefore, to examine the intake of breath in regard to this, understanding that it is no small matter for a man to overwork the influences and re-establish his incarnating breath to breath. In learning to lessen the intake, [as with Buteyko] when issue and subsequent intake become labored, implies that the driving compulsion is also lessened, although not weakened, for it is then a question of force and of impact as well as of volume.

It is a little like lessening the impact of a skydiving fall, only far more effective. For as the being courses the circulatory route within his systems, he can glide his way into existence or he can collide through each portal of conjunction, and his health most certainly wears these effects depending. Chemical inhalants which cause 'crash and burn' and the blood pressure to accelerate, inhibit the proper transformative processes - meaning that the qualities, say for example of your Ahrimanic influence, will be released without having been given the personalized overhaul.


What this will mean is that we have encountered a quality and allowed it to pass through us without realizing it to be objectionable in its present form. If we do not soundly establish this then we in a future time will go on to incorporate certain qualities, rather than know to annihilate or transform them in our thinking and so forth.

It has been established that the process of our beings making physical discernments in relation to substance and its related spheres of influence, differs depending upon the form of ingestion so taken. That which is accepted into the bloodstream and not given orally through to the gut, has more opportunistic presence within a man to be accepted in substance for what it would be. There is little or no fiery interaction as there is with the digestive assimilation.

Equally so, when we come to consider an assimilation into the lungs we come to the most sensitive organ for spiritual transforming. Our hearts introduce our soul life into this existence, whilst our lungs introduce our egos. So from this one can see that the contaminants which might be introduced into the lungs may directly be brought into question as to the entire influence upon our arterial selves and its discrimination and determinings.

The weakness manifest in those who are susceptible to airbound allergens for example, displays the physical concerns for what may also befall in spiritual influence. Once again, the body is unfit to recognize that which it would ordinarily reject and rework, and has lost its ability to cast off or dispel adequately those contaminating forces. In the case of an allergic response the system has then exaggerated the process without effectively dealing with the substance or its remnants. Now if this is to happen in the wider sense of influential contaminants, we can see the risk of men ingesting a propensity to a whole way of thinking or of being and so forth.

The very problems of asthma go so much further than the life and death upset that it initially causes. The entire incarnating process is interrupted and the egoic assimilative discernments can be compromised with both symptoms and treatments thereafter. Whilst a treatment of any kind has to be preferable to death itself, it is the foremost arterial example of weakness and ill-health which can be triumphantly overcome with magnificent result. Think also, that because the lungs imbue the world and the self with selfhood, how very relevant it is to take a conscious direction in the management of such! The very cure does lie within! The answer being yet the great part to this riddle!

Here also is yet another clue as to the power and potency some drugs of addiction which are inhaled, and shall hold force over the ego with propriety, that as ingested through the stomach would only hold to be a poison (and yet the system would still battle and reject the force one is host to). If brought into the blood, the same would contaminate the soul forces with direct influence, but when introduced through the egoic path of the lungs we have a direct influence upon the ego of the man itself - weakened and susceptible and all remitting.

Essentially all influences which abound about us can be tolerably beneficial to us, or happily far more than that - they may enhance us and the world most wonderfully. The question therefore, both with people and with substance, brings us to wonder as to whether or not in our deciding, something is poison or some thing is good. If we forfeit our deciding it becomes worse than a poison - the reflux is but a counter effect, which means that the recourse will be almost unanswerable. 

Arterialness requires a constant deciding, an active participation, an involvement and a responsibility that says to the world, that you are adamant about your existence and will work to maintain it as best you can. This is a necessary respect we give to Father God, who we do put before all personages and privileges of both the Spirit and of the World. If we hold Him to be important firstly to ourselves, and give time to Him then all else will become clear as to our deciding. Deciding itself has consequence, and to this end it shall more or less look after itself. We are all tutored profitably, providing we can remain conscious and intact with a constant referral to Father God. 

Amen

Arterial Self, Problem n

Problem n: Marriage, Companionship & Arterial Reflux
"See thou all of the souls that thou has loved, who also do love thee most dearly" solemn spake the voice; as with hearing this, the man turned and raised his eyes upward seeking to penetrate the ethers high above and beyond him.

One by one the starry lights revealed themselves until the dark globe surrounding was emaciated with countless luminaries.

"See thou these souls?" repeated the same voice with knowing inquiry.

"I see" he replied, deep in gratitude ... and then he asked further, "But where amongst all of these may I find her?"

"She is not of these stars, dear son, not a one - she is of thee, same star, same one."

"Tell me then, where may I find this, mine own constant luminary?"

Commentary:
The nature of true love is fecund. It becomes prominent and apparent to those who are inspired to the better, so improved and prosperous in soul, in hope, that there works the active blessings in all that it brings to those who do know it.

Man knows the reality of such romance and the longing of the soul for romantic intercession by the very coupling of all realities as apparent and perceived. As sky suckles earth, as earth imbibes sky, as Creator to all Creation, and Creation so loved, woman is made apparent by man, and he in her, unto perfection.

The primordial coupling of souls in first union came to verify all searching thereafter, and yet, with a still immature resonance between the separated two, there is by this broken accord a remonstrative break in all relationships to follow as well. Arterially the twin souls are not encumbered by each other, and if ever there was a time for reckoning apart, venturing into each individual's own pathway to Father God, then perhaps it is more so in this period of being that this shall become. 

This separation will not always be so however. The connection which is shared between one and another has remained and is eventually brought to subtle undertides of being. By this we mean plainly that each individual has their soul partner, most of whom are not known or recognized to them in any given incarnation, but because of this relationship they are forever seeking that same commune amongst others.

It is by the reality of their twin soul that they can know to find a love outside of their Father God's directly. If it were not for their twin aspects they would not be so motivated in venturing into the fields of other's designs. Essentially it will be fraught with a certain disappointment, with the contention that all individuals are not the comfortable twin, nor could become them, and so the man will come to love and to know many, many souls over the tracing of eons, and although not one shall necessarily be the other that he is by instinct still seeking, they will all ineffably contrast his own being and promote much joy, both to each other and to the embracing Cosmos.

Inevitably, as all good romances go, man will unite with his beloved in soul. Having said this, there have always been guarded remarks afforded to this subject, in the event that it will then go on to be presumed that for all men this is possible in the very near future to come, and this is not the case as is now known. For each pair of twin-soul individuals there is a possibility of time together, of even a lifetime together (and yet the instances of this are very few). However in regards to this station of evolution collectively, there is no indication that the active bondings would extend further than that. There could be an auto-psychic connection between the two self-conscious individuals, and an awareness of one unto another that could tutor each in the corresponding qualities and experiences, but there would not be the instance of the two literally becoming one for all time. They are as one already by point of origin, but they are not in anyway meant to congeal the consciousness or mix egos with a deathly surrender.

So this is the issue itself of love and fecundity; that interactions between couples (the term 'couples' here is referring to any two individuals, not speaking only of certain status or activity) is to be fertile with new possibility, entertaining life and new life without the consuming portent of one gloomily overshadowing the other.

All men and women have betrothed themselves to many different souls over lifetimes, and with each solemn exchange there has been before their soul's eye, the spiritual/causal reality made representational in ceremony or by act. The spiritual diviner here is that of the signatory status of two combined, and as the opening paragraphs did indicate, we hold that glorious signatory knowledge of so many, that by now, for each one of us, there is indeed a sky full of beings whom we have loved.

This is not so difficult to realize would that a man's memory could extend back as far as his beginnings and times between; and each carry the living memory of what has passed between them, that we may find that there is no given sequence of time, but rather of dear folk, all who continue to hold record, key and significance to those periods which we knew them.

Not one man may separate the signatory status of another, either from himself or disrupting another two. "What God has joined together" becomes fact with the truth of this sanctity given to each soul; we are protected and given this mutuality which is to last for all time. In other words, every relationship between two individuals is so holy in its combining that our Father God has given it a permanence that will lastingly remain.

On the other hand this is not the case when it comes to other beings necessarily. Men do not keep keys with elemental beings, devils or souls of animals with which they hold affinity or affiliation. This is purely amongst the first tier of the family of souls amongst men that this be so, and we can take a short time to ponder the very wonder of this, and the security of all infinity thereafter.

Animals have not the means to acknowledge the return of a familiar soul, although with the more progressive there can be a compensating memory-recollection given to its subtle bodies for a short while.

Elemental beings would make a deadly attachment to a man if they were afforded connections which endured beyond the spheres of this planet and past death.

Associations between men, no matter how brief the span or seemingly inconsequential, are determining their mix within their own being as well. By this all men do give immediately to each other - they enhance and imbibe each other - although the individual ego of a man does not always accept this outright (nor must he feel impelled to do so - however, he cannot try for disassociation either). 

Arterially our freedom here brings Man the concentration of his deliberating consciousness that he may dissuade himself from the very influences he carries. How miraculous it is, that amongst all of the countless keys appendaged to him, he may come anew to further relationships and to his own identity afresh each morning upon waking.

In sleep we take everything to our Father, and if it be our purpose to leave it there, we may do so. All of the freedoms that are given to Man afford him the greater abilities for further love made all the more important. In that a man has such a selective memory which pertains only to the incoming present, provides new possibilities enabling further relationships. If discourse and interaction ceases to be fruitful between individuals, the individuals themselves will seek out other company. This freedom to do so is maintained for the sake of true communing and its relevance, rather than perpetuating signature only (which of itself does not need to be actively worked for to be upheld).

The question as to whether or not one individual can cause harm to another simply by means of proximity, unfortunately is to be answered "yes". The grace of our being unaffected by each key that we hold of our combining with others, is not present in our dealings - equally so we are not protected from physical poisons or physical trauma. The proximity of an individual will determine subtle influences depending upon both their character and intent, and it will be children who are most affected morally, within their physical and astral bodies, becoming apparent as they age.

Whilst most men have the freedom to decide whether or not they keep company with particular individuals, there are some who for one reason or another suffer difficult circumstances. This may be a pupil who is overshadowed by the meanness of his teacher; it could be a parent who has love for a child, who when grown has turned into their chief tormentor; in a lusterless marriage, or with a combining of committee duty whereupon one individual unfairly requires the rest to submit; these instances and more can indicate a suppression which comes in reflux, in refluence to the individuals involved.

Not only do the immediate natures of each infect the other, there are secondary influences which compound and work in upon any coupling. If all is going well and the combining is fruitful, if arterially there is unquestioned delight in each other's presence - an open acceptance, a compatibility and so forth - then the opposing differences will be met with the buffers of gentle humor consequential to love. However, discord with parity need not be voiced to be felt, and the subsequent responses, which work inwardly, will manifest through weakness later on, if it so exists.

Discord itself can live amongst the most seemingly peaceable of people, for it does not require outward remonstration to be apparent. Now there are two schools of thought here: one which would recommend that we flee from all disquiet, whilst the other maintains that our great gift of learning of one another comes out of such discord etc. etc.

Firstly we can say that just as there are many silent divorces (a marriage which is no longer a marriage, when the true divorce occurs long before the public act) there are equally conditions of all relationships which are under par, and yet this is obvious only in the spiritual context. This does not undervalue any love and companionship two may have shared previously, but it is to describe a condition which belatedly befalls whereby our immunity is low and our Arterial Self begins to re-examine its perimeters as well as those of others.

So we find that the discord itself between two people, whether it be spoken or unspoken of, rests like a heavying cloud above their heads, with all the tension of the ensuing thunderclap so felt! This does not have to be related to specific differences or disagreements, it is just brought about simply because of the tensions and disruptions that all individuals have, which in companionship can become accentuated with the reflux from one onto another and then exaggerated.

Certain discord is inevitable, given that we are not with the twin soul-mate first looked for, and also that we to them, are not theirs. Secondly, this is not current for the world, that the souls abroad have happened upon their own, and so unrest abounds and this becomes of a general discord felt as well. Added to this we find that the inclinations which exist in the astral makeover of those to whom we are in proximity with, may well affect us directly in disrupting the equanimity which is known when we are alone. We can bear out our own points of disharmony as they arise, far easier than we can intermittently withstand the effluence of another. Discord, depending here upon the differences, will contribute a'further.

Inward upset and disquiet does not, of itself, prove worthy; it does not enhance relationships, nor does it necessarily make a poorly one better. Learning to deflect some of its results is purely a strength in turning a bad situation into a marginally better one, but it does not provide any lasting value if it cannot cease the discord altogether.

This may indeed sound harsh to say, and yet we are to be reminded that either discord is there or it is not there. Whether or not it seems to be there, or appears to be manageable, is not in question or refuted.

When individuals combine cordially there becomes all the glamor of good womanhood and manhood at its best. When this ceases to be (or perhaps has never has been so) in subsequent combining there becomes the diffraction of self and the contention of self, all being argued perpetually around in the ethers of their proximities; then it happens that the two in their discord will cause such reflux upon the other, that their sense of internal peace, of arterially frequenting to Father God, is interrupted in each others' presence.

This is the very test and measure of that discord being present, and it is interesting to note that communities and families that pray together do invite the arterial congeniality which will enable their discord to be quietened at best. However, in the case of two individuals in sufferance it will not be enough (although significantly helpful) to ensure that the two are in harmonious rapport. Upon this subject, one must also ask, if it was such that it became obligatory, then surely it would be an evil also? There is freedom for each to be their own and freedom also to depart company.

Our Father God always returns us to ourselves that we may know Him. We have difficulty knowing Him if we have departed our arterial soul consciousness and tried in an effort of even congeniality to trade it. This has been witnessed amongst many who have sought the community of a church and then lost their faith. These men have felt inwardly that they have lost their presence of Father God but did not understand that this was because they put the community of men before Him. Even in church this will not make for good faith. Even though it may be for the noblest of intentions towards our brothers and by thereby endeavoring to 'manage' discord, it will nonetheless be a distraction from Father God if indeed we continue to suffer it.

Anger, by the way, expressed or unexpressed, only contributes to discord - it could not of itself, even when dispelled, become profitable.

Arterial Self, Problem m

Problem m: Thrilling & the Three Episodes

The early hours of the morning are pregnant, expectant with the happenings of the day to come. Caught in that pause before sunrise, that waiting watchfulness, alive in a darkness complete, the anticipation of the future's presence stirs through the being of all that sleeps ...

With this approaching, there has galloped in the tides of new life that lap impatiently at the edge of this new day. As the forces of the preceding empty out, those of the new thrill to the wakefulness immanent within the World.

Commentary:
Ever so, the lesser example sets the patterns found elsewhere throughout all realms, as is here in our story of impending evolution. Such anticipation as is known within those early hours when life crams its way in, when the ethers are charged with the effluence of a new existence, this same lively expectation gathers also at such evolutionary interludes as we are now experiencing, when Man and all the Kingdoms which he conducts, has arrived at the pre-dawn of his arterial knowing.

Nightly we are summoned to our Father God, as also in yet a slighter fashion we return to Him with every closing of an eyelid - when a man blinks in just the natural course of his wakeful day, he is in this part referring back continuously. Just as with the action of sleep, there is upon us an 'unknowing' in which the involuntary actions of withdrawal (momentary or prolonged) are unrecalled by the consciousness, though vital to its very life and continuance.

Whenever there is an inactive representation in manifestation, there has been a resumption with God. He keeps and protects all those which have vacated their natural place. If they have made an exit or not yet fulfilled their perimeters of existence, He houses those parts of their beings until such time as it is so.

When we began this arterial examining we chose issue with futures that befell prematurely. By contrast today we can go on to study the excellent importance of a future which is perfectly placed in relative time and exacting to the needs of the beings enclosed, when the spiritual worlds swell with their intuitive foreknowledge and forewonder at those very things awaiting.

The principle of all returns withdrawing to Father God explains something also of the 'empty' existence. Often it is asked, "How can things appear so, yet not be so?" This does of course, occur on many levels whereby what one may imagine from past knowledge to be there quite simply isn't, and yet could be if conditions were forthcoming.

Think for a moment of an idiot-born child, this child is represented as almost he would and could be, but does not go on in this life to fully represent himself in his arterial consciousness. But where is his latent being and this self-ego consciousness? It is quite literally kept with God.

This is not speaking in figurative terms, but is plainly meant - and to great purpose - for as long as Father God Himself safekeeps something, someone, some element of being which is held back from manifesting, for whatever reason, then when it does come into its perfect timing it has been protected in such a way that there is still remaining the freedom of that signature expression and of being to become so. Verily there would be no safe place to shelter from all other influence if it were not for Father God.

This occurs upon all planes of being, for men also, because they simply cannot be simultaneously active in their conscious expression in every way that is possible for them. Wherever it is that they reside in self-consciousness there are portions of that soul-mind or ego-mind which are illuminated, active and receptively knowing; whilst also there are many other faculty impressions and reasonings which are at any given time not functioning. And, we may say once again, that if something is 'not there' yet with the possibility and promise of being so, then it is safe-guarded with our Father God - from Whom all things began, and to Whom all shall return. So when the future enters in it does so fresh from our Father God, and the anticipations summoned in the surrounding souls is one of thrilling to His emissaries becoming apparent.

For this reason it is most natural for men to cleave to habitual behavior. The higher set sequence of withdrawal, anticipation and their return, can be satisfactorily mimicked or played out in all kinds of habitual routine which becomes pleasing to a man, moreso for the habit than for the substance itself. Children delight in this set sequence, and for adults the issue here is to be comfortable arterially with all of its phases, and come to welcome and honor all three.

This stop/pause/start, exhale/rest/inhale, die/withdraw/revive principle of episode, provides us with an ongoing continuity. If we are fearful during the period of pausing, resting or withdrawing, that we are subject to an uncontained void, then it is natural to inhibit the process of due future, by hesitating at its preliminaries - as similarly, the man who denies himself the proper time required for a restful sleep. We may disrupt our spiritual anticipatings with a consciousness that refuses to let go, and cease and die unto itself; one that is gripped by an anxiety, a 'Fatherlessness' anxiety, which can't recall God because it cannot entertain the consciousness of non-existence. (But this is not for all time and all men to come. Future-man can actually embrace Father God in his full wakeful mind and know Him consciously).

On the other hand any one of those three elements may be disproportionately indulged in by a man also. This then sets up a spiritual illness of a kind: the exaggeration of promoting life through death is one which we have discussed previously; as is too the man who is forever seeking the thrill of the forthcoming, to-ing and fro-ing in and out of excitement to excitement, without giving commensurate maintenance to preparation and cessation of those things entered into aforehand. Then there are those sleepy individuals who take rest within themselves and are rarely provoked into a fuller manifestation.

All three modes can become so fixed that the overall man is sickened by that fixation and this can be witnessed in the subsequent personality (which can and does, continue on with or without arterial/set conscious deliberating).

The illness of becoming too fixed into death is not pessimism as one might first presume, it is moreover a misplaced, poorly gauged optimism. It is an offbeat optimism which is divorced from the underpinning realities - insensitive to the psychology of true futures ordained - one which can no longer interpret the intimations of their accompanying Angels or intuitive resources enough to understand the right timing.

This is a misguided optimism because it suggests incorrectly that "everything will be all right in the end no matter what the case". It relies on the Father God to whom we can withdraw to, but does not take the responsibility for consciousness at all in this. It is a nonsense to say that "everything will work out just fine" if the timing was out and the purpose was gone. Too much sun, too little water or too much compost makes too little plant. Overall every component of life has its exact requirements to survive and it is deathly to not respect this.

New Ageism has promoted a laziness of this kind, whereby the truth is out of context and exaggerated to the point of an unhealthy soul-view. It is surely not enough to merely trust in death and in sleep, without also having a commitment to wakefulness and to life itself. This commitment must necessarily follow through to the immediate stations, those placings where we reside. Over many incarnations a man will find himself in countries and occupations and in social placings that are defined by his effort; all different, but nonetheless reliant upon his exertion of self.

The physical problems which result from too much death are the extraction from life, the excarnating whereby in subsequent lives the man may be born with redundant limbs or senses, requiring that his effort be all the more driven, and the will once again motivated into life itself. The inanimation of a man does give time to Father God, being a 'saving' grace indeed.

Conversely, what of the powers expended in revival and life when indulged in to excess? This, as wasted fruit does sour into pessimism. The man or woman who overly takes revival out of time and out of proper context, looks for life also where it has not yet chanced. However, as things are wont to do in working backwards within the soul-nature of an individual, the pessimism knows that cessation and death are required, but once again does not know when. It is true to say that when a man is brought to excessive wealth for example, he is known to suffer within himself an emptiness, an unfulfilment and a dread of loss, a pessimism if you will, and so forth. This is the consequence of seeking out too much early life when dusk has come.

Too much wakeful consciousness when it is proper time for the mind to rest becomes painful in the extreme. Too much light to eyes that do not close; too much false hope inevitably promotes inherent gloom.

The illness which comes from this self-seeking, self-gratifying and selfish temperament is tragically tumourous. The overgrowth is largely related to a man whose own natural forces become saturated in this pessimism, this doubt, fear and grave distrust. 

The back-tide to overly indulging in anticipation is realism. This pre-dawn existence is most likely the preferable on which to be fixed. However, even with its connecting bridge from Heaven to Earth, when stayed in, out of the context of the three, it too promotes an illness in a man, and this is one of addiction: obsessive, addictive dependence.

Realism says "I know what is to come"; and often an individual in small ways can set about to preordain an experience for himself that he may know this and prove himself right. It does lead however to a false sense of a) self importance and b) foreknowledge as it stands. Self-fulfilled prophesies hold no lasting value and addictions of any kind feed upon themselves eventually taking more life than they offer.

Having travailed the exaggerated aspects given to isolation, we can now look and find what it means to a man to hold all three equally in his Arterial Soul-consciousness. For one thing it means to say that our 'multi-level freeway intersection' has its red, amber and green traffic lamps! For another it tells us of the very pattern of early being, that we may come to change, rested, prepared and awake.

Dialogue requires these three elements to be lively and fruitful overall. So too do all components to living, from our arterial relationships to our digesting of food. There are periods of that which must come to a close, with then the quiet that follows, preparing for new issue descending from Heaven.

In this knowledge lies many useful secrets for Man. His keys to understanding and interpreting how life flows, in arterial currencies, will be markedly assuaged if he can find which of the three phases he is in at any given time, so that he may prepare for that to follow. 

All problems can be applied to so. Impatience can be quelled and the patterns surrounding may begin to make the mysterious ever more legible as we are drawn out from our Father God's essence and personified.

Arterial Self, Problem l

Problem l: Using the Rod

"That's odd" he said, having never before held a compass or seen its magnetic north, "Whichever way I stand it still points to its preferred!"

Commentary:
Abject selflessness tells us that our own desires and knowings are not important.

It is possible for a man to spend many years learning to quash his inner understandings and desires which stream out from his arterial being. In trusting that we know ourselves, we can help others to do so similarly. This is important from the very highest view, that we also honor our knowing of Christ, for one follows the other, just as all true compasses point to Heaven.

If we discredit ourselves we discredit everything about ourselves and our love for Him. This is the sickness which is rife amongst the seemingly lukewarm Christians. They have been weathered by their own selflessness and are quick to believe as a consequence that no man excels another in any regard, and so then doubt themselves. They trade this humility for self degradation, in the effort to put themselves last, and they put Christ last by doing this as well.

By not honoring one's arterial knowing you have not the understanding to question as whether or not another man is acting out from his primary self, or indeed he has come at you from the many other directions which are on or off course. It could well be that we could respect all men's views providing that they were not so flimsy, changeable and incoherent, and that they were uniform to the arterial being, and not to the one hundred and one other faces that they may wear at the time.

We can learn to approach our innermost selves with same reverence as that we know when we go to God in prayer. For it can be said that it must be with a piety and a thanksgiving, the mysterious yet also the greatest familiar; a quietness, discharging all superfluous self; a reliance, a credibility and an open question, that we may come to do this. Our innermost arterial selves deserve that field of operation.

We are ancient, we are our own very best connection with Father God Himself; and we are duty bound to consult ourselves before any other upon any matter. It is we who are responsible for all that we do. It is we who are answerable to God. It is only by this maturity of being that we can begin to operate amongst the World and the Spiritual Worlds with the forthrighteousness necessary to help further equip Mankind.

Learning to lean on the staff of this reckoning brings us to a self questioning which accepts the answer that is given. When we pray we do not go to Father God and then query His reply. We do not discourse or make argument, we pray, we are answered and we know. There is no second advance or other approach.

If we are sincere with ourselves, then it will be that our reply to ourselves will be as sincere. This is something between ourselves and no other. This is the deciding as to what you need, feel, decide, etc. And though it is not with the same weight of God's deciding (this is, of course), it can be understood in similar terms of consulting and so forth, not allowing the self doubt which trivializes after the fact.