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6. An increased fearfulness in proportion and reaction to this bulk of evil that is now becoming more and more apparent to the developing soul.

This fearfulness is secondary (just as with the example of the inherent guilt which is faceless and less exact than any particular reality)… it is most definitely founded, and perhaps this is why it is so very hard upon the individual to carry.
The reality of evil is nothing short of dread-full - and dread being dread, we are naturally abhorred and affrighted by even its mention. This too is of consequence to the soul who awakes into the developing awareness of the importance of our Christ in the World and in our beings. It is suffered by every goodly creature, and there is no need to feel a compounded guilt at the fact that we do know this condition also.

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The Holy Man's Trials 5

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5. An increased perception of evil as it exists invisibly within the local world.

Sadly for the man who begins by reaching out for a beatified state of soul, he is more than likely to meet with the contrasting knowledge (even if it is subliminal to him) of the slovenly forces about within his very locality. This is a natural depression, which is not all-consuming but is known to be something which again he can mistake to be himself when it is not.

Part of our developing sensitivity requires times of abstraction out from the very experience we seek to attune ourselves with. It is not only an important exercise of ego that we should be able to withdraw back into our arterial sense of our own triune nature, but also that we may have a larger rather than partial perception of that we are experiencing.

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The Holy Man's Trials 4

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4. An irreconcilable upset with the awareness of these Doubles as they present in others.

This occurs when the Doubles actually contest ourselves or our own good credibility and we do know it. 

Often the awareness of a Double excites it into action. There is an astral transaction between the two and the individual feels pressured into reacting defensively; or guardedly at the very least.

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The Holy Man's Trials 3

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3. An increasing awareness of the Doubles as they exist in others.

As we develop, our natural clairvoyance presents us with difficult truths, and the first presentation can often be the 'Demon at the Gate', so to say. Unnerving and distracting, the sensitive man has difficulties with that of his own Double, let alone the prospect of a veritable and terrible army of them!

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