I Am this World- 23rd December 1993

With the apparel of a temporal storm, thick enclaves of mud, which like a fondue spatter and bubble, infiltrate the clear water puddles, narrowing the swollen arterial river ways. . . The arbor satisfied, calls unto the rain, drawing its succor into trainer and runner; and the salt-tempered earth inhales Life by the soil; and the meshes of blind-reaching tangles creep just a little bit farther. . .

THE great cities chatter with a liveliness of their own self importance, exuding, exhaling, emitting with ceaseless salvo. And to each, nestled in congregate huddle, the hidden activities provide for the unsuspecting souls ignorant to their being, and bring the gifts of the natural and extraordinary world - the combustion of putrefied ferment delivered daily into free particles; blessed with elastic renewal.

The multifarious hostels of insects, given to sprawl and bustle with laborious drive, these and their cousins, the sleeping pollens, stimulate life by activity in perpetual hurriedness. They make designs within the invisible world - that place adjunct - and these patterns of activity encore and precipitate physical being. White ant, red ant, black ant, green ant - who does count and know each one? And in swarms infesting those cavernous hideaways, they work on.

Vivacious the wildlife, protective their entourage - beings-celeste and beings-gravitae. Whisper corporeal world, that they might hear you; for it must be soft-spoken to penetrate through. 

Now at Christmastide, the imp, the sprite, the nymph, the sylph, the rock-dwellers and the slime-bound creatures, the triphibious beings of the air, of light, of water, become aware of the men who stalk amongst they who ordinarily maintain a casual denial of presence. All at once they become eager to draw forward and peer and prod the manly-being before them, in wondrous curiosity. 


There is a boost within the dome of general consciousness whereupon the infilling light awakens all creatures and beings energetically, that they may come to find much more of the community they dwell in. For it is generally, that we prefer to live in amongst our fellows, naïve to their being and presence.

To some they are as mere expressions of life, however detailed; when verily they are individualities composed with soul and stature, and reasonably divine! Even the mite has soul: his being extends to that soul which is his. Shared or not, he is with the importance our Father God, instilled; and the character devised by unfathomable wisdom; and we may assess this with humble respect.

And too within ourselves, our blessed bodies who in servitude do love our souls; our multi-fractional egos, which as experience gathers, come to love and endorse our world in its entirety and honor Heaven in this also. For the ego of a man knowingly commits to the understanding of all that which is quite separate to it - full circle a man does become what he did first experience in the great revelations of initial vision. Man says "I am the World, I am time itself, I am the light behind the light, and I dispel self in the mirror of all my fellows-in-being".

Once experience has gravitated unto a man he says, "I am particular and knowledgeable and may prise this world into many pieces - I may count the minutes if I will, and discern the light from the shadows - I am not my brother, I am me, and how I know I am me is by what I choose not to be".

Then, one day in full self-realization, the precious ego-incarnate may exclaim:

I am this World and I do know it.
I am this World and this World does know it.
For I have looked unafraidedly into her face,
And she returned my greeting,
And we met on that inner plane where souls are meeting.

I am Time,
For I have aged and withered and died,
Only to return and withstand every parcel of change time had wrought,

Only to conclude that in being timeless throughout,
I am Time in perpetuity,
For it serves me, in generous latitude.



I am the light behind the light,
Where He goes, go I –
Into every illuminated recess,
From my eye to His Eye.


I have looked in His Eyes unafraidedly
And seen how the light does stream out from them.
Onto the World His Soul pours from His Eyes,
And I am that He is,
And He is that I be.
And I have offered back my being,
With gratitude which is full and pervious,
And wept with thankfulness, that I too am illuminated.

I am the full measure of all of my brother's fault and majesty,
I have tasted their salt and their sweet and become both,
Pursuing this worldly knowledge.
And from this, I love them all and know them well;
And though I know I am not them,
I remember when it was, how it was, in being as them so similarly.


And I do not measure myself against Men –
For I am only much more,
Therefore there is no distinction –
But measure myself with the god-men,
Who beckon me higher unto them.


I am mirrored in the Celestial Powers,
And I am, on behalf of all Men,
I am.

The Basic Priorities to Existence & Grace- 18th December 1993

"NOT all trees may become Ash trees", and with consideration to species - as species is divided - we may add to this in saying that there must be Divine reasoning for diversification in plants, in animals and in Men. Not all men shall go on to develop and become so similarly; even when their feet are fixed upon this path, this inner road home. Even when the certainties reside and the urgings to the quest have lent the fresh perspective and inflamed the mightiest of curiosities, men go forth and become in different fashions - not all the same. Yes, men of Christ will feature this and that in preference to those and they, and each as glorified and as deified as the other. Every man has equal purse, over time.

The great mystery is Man - where has he gone? How great the contrast- the contrast between the firstborn, the purest blood, and his numerous relatives with heavy countenance in delicate stupor.

There is mystery if one looks into the face of many individuals and asks "Where is the man within? ". They may be walking and talking and appear to be interacting. But at times, with some fellows, it is apparent that the 'ennobled soul' is as inactive as to be quite separate, as it were, to the copycat facsimile before you. Where is the divinity? He is, in consciousness pertinent, quite happily placed dozing with back to road aside a river; concealed within a sun bespeckled forest; conversing with the Angeloi - or yes, most literally 'off with the fairies'!

When we gather our consciousness to ourselves, we drive more of our own substance into that concentration which is placed where the ego of our being resides. Yet too, we are apportioned in many ways throughout the soul-hemispheres, having remnants of self in all places past frequented- we may flit here and there, respectively. The 'narrowing down' in self-conscious exacting is a drawing together, a summoning of those higher faculties which are ours, when we come to know how to use them. In this back-to-front sense, a man never really becomes more than he already is; and yet one might say this also for a silken thread yet to take its place amongst an extravagant tapestry - one might say it is all one and the same. . . 

However, we may not take to ourselves and claim that which is not ours to take; and every godlike feature which comprises the advanced Man is already accessibly inaugurate to the constitution.

The central point of gravity within a Man depicts his knot of active consciousness. By and by he will become capable to enable powers and strengths - from will, by concentration, from a developed and exercised morality (which corresponds with cosmic virtue) - that he does exercise and provoke thereby the higher ordinances- little by little he is dynamic centrally and conducts accordingly.

The higher attributes of a man are correspondingly sensitive to the Graces which sustain the soul and infill it with properties specific to their heavenly inclination. For were we to not experience the qualities of Grace, a man would be basic to need, sameness and stimulation only.

• Need= Hunger needing sup-placation, coldness needing warmth, muscular system needing exercise and commanding movement, genitalia needing accompaniment and stimulation - actually pairing according to the vital and specific inclinations.

• Sameness= similar to sympathy, but not so developed. For one may sympathize or empathize without actually being the same at that time as the correspondent. In the developed sense we may advance out from our ego-condition sufficiently to experience another's station or experience or meaning, or gift; and then recoil back. However with sameness the sympathy is limited to expression and inadequate. Camaraderie is often born of sameness, as opposed to true brotherliness. Dogs may lie against each other when cold, in mutual understanding. They may even lack the ego as defined and consequently have sameness of experience with a human by sharing the man's experience, but this too is sameness.
  

• Stimulation= the reactive element which maintains continuity. In this way the physical world may appear distinct from its truer reality - that it works upon itself with a series of atomic contests. However the movements of all are marvelously manipulated by higher intervention, second by second (actually out of time).
  

So the point in reviewing the basic priorities to existence: need, sameness and stimulation, is that it may assist us to begin to comprehend the power and value of the aspects compelled by Grace which infill us with a vastly higher meaning than the basic animalia has to offer. It is by the practice and rehearsal of higher thought, aspiring and conjoining with Divinity's reasonings that fashion the man, who, as the pearl, gains layer upon layer of beauteous acquisition upon the general core.

Is the student dismayed that he may supersede his brothers? Does he wrestle with their attendances and eagerly foists his own self-measures upon them? Are we impatient for perfection to work and prove us correct?

What we do we do for the future, yes, but also we do firstly for the here and now. The saying that 'the end justifies the means' implies that the means may be unwholesome and yet qualified by result. We would argue that a sour beginning only leads to a sour end, that all seeds of action are colored with the initial 'spirit-vitae' and the nature of such. Therefore it is precisely the 'doing' within the realm of the here and now that need be answerable to the future.

Returning to the opening comment about the Ash: the Temple of St. John is open to every man, of course, but whether or not it is to be the choosing of every man to enter, is an entirely different matter. In a manner of speaking it is as the whole of Humanity - just as we discussed - Man has all the components of deity already; and yet our supporters anguish in ripe indignation that their 'teachers' are so ignored! This frustration comes of immaturity and is to be expected. In time the student comes to realize that it is misspent aggravation, when it is consolation which is required.

How so? As every frontier is ventured upon there becomes esoterically, a deluge of unanswered imponderables, which if not met with an inner content shall dissolve a man almost entirely. For mysteries never cease to be mysterious! It truly is endless - any field of study necessarily and profoundly, holds the opening doors to further and further penetrations of understanding; and the 'unravelling' as it were, has to be ceaseless, for all that comprises eternity is by nature ceaseless too. The story is that long, and the facts along the way are immeasurable in their totality. So we must at the outset develop a capacity to be content when we are not so inclined to be so - that we may exercise this at will, for there is a paradox in understanding too. One may actually come to a comprehensive grasp of understanding, soulfully, and this may ease one into the contentedness we seek.

For example: If one is frustrated that the majority of men are incapable of higher discernment, it becomes an imponderable to contest this thought. On the one hand it is downgrading and demeaning and insulting and injurious to view any man as a dullard or inadequate, on the other hand (forgetting the impropriety) it is often the case that the man is a dullard or inadequate, and could achieve, would that he could; and we do rightfully make these distinctions on behalf of him, and are frustrated because he at this time cannot. However such frustration at these discrepancies becomes as self-inflicting sorrow if we do not answer it with, as they as they say, "a hope and a prayer", "a lick and a promise", and then go on.

One cannot go where uninvited. One cannot give to he who refuses - this is the Law. We can respect this Law because it affords each to license of himself, and commensurately, protecting our freedom all the while. Dear Christ cannot obtain the entrance key (at this time - but who knows?) and so we must be content in His Reasoning that this be so.

There is no amount of urging whereupon one may accelerate or accentuate another's development. Equally so, all students, though few these are relatively speaking, share great meshes of supporting sympathies amongst them which surpass distance, from city to city, outpost to nether-nether; and every meditation, every aspiration, every inner acknowledgment gathers light to the planet, as well as to themselves. We may not answer all evil or all stupidity, we may however, address and remedy that which is our appointed task as presented.

Contentedness need not imply faint-heartedness, nor should we be one hundred percent content all the time- moreso content with our discontent which provokes us to greater concern.

Association, right association is of tremendous importance! It has been held by us before and need be said again, that it is vital to the soul of man that he lovingly works amongst that which he does. That study must be with joy and enthusiasm - his joy and his enthusiasm - and it is disharmonious and injurious if these aspects are not with him. When he labors it should be with great happiness to do so. When he is in company, be it - at least some of the time - with those who his soul is most comfortable to be placed with, and where possible, dynamically intertwined, fashioned by mutual love. For without absolute wholehearted participation, he is resigning his individuality to a corrupt and irregular aspect of perspective. The greater profit to the man and his world is through the expressions of ecstatic interaction.

There are many tasks which are loathsome and it would be pretentious to assume that every detail may be exerted with full joy. However when there is time afforded and personal choosing, one is better to 'follow one's heart' and pursue those activities which encourage the exuberant joy.

Should one choose the way of the teacher and to be exemplary to those who might savour advice, should it be from one who is lusterless and humorless, ill-content with the world? It becomes an interesting misapprehension: one is no less serious in that they experience happiness, in fact, contrariwise! There are confusions in this; however it is stressed by us because so often the students who have arrived thus far are humbled in their expectations and are dangerously grim. God surely has appointed happiness that we may come to know it completely, and that be His Happiness also.

Happiness is preferable to wickedness, and man shall learn this as well. Frivolity is not happiness, just the appearance thereof. Happiness is the expansion of self, swollen with the comprehension, jubilant with the infilling grace of wonderment, and closer to a knowledge-wisdom of one's soul. We wish you happiness - now and forever.

(Thanking those also for all kind thoughts - requests noted, depositions accredited. We are not so intrusive, but only a thought away. And, you do come close.)

Locomotion & the New Year- 14th December 1993

THE synthesis of time and actuality does differ in this segment of the year, for the parcel which does pertain to Yule is as at the neck of a vortex where the greater activity is clustered, and the calendar of the year begins to resolve rapidly, whilst the saturation of new impulses await the 'emptying out' as it were.

The celebrated marking of the New Year is for the very reason as identified inwardly: that the cosmic latitudes are broadened, that the gifts for the coming cycle are imparted and received; and too, something of a true picture-insight is accompanying. 

It becomes also as a death in miniature, characterized by the appearance of our ghoulish guilt who is the living testimony to fault, flaw and mishap; and if ever there was a time to make peace with the sorry fellow - this guardian of conscience - it is at the threshold of change, where we may begin at this interval to ask more from ourselves, pointedly. For there are very definite episodes whereupon a man may enjoy a precipitated leap should he consciously will to do so. He may effect certain changes in all levels of his being; whereas other periods and conditions do not offer such elastic grace.

Remarkably there are very many men who miss this period entirely, involved in such activities which do dissuade progressive change and coherent insight. The revelling of lightheartedness and lightheadedness is provoked by the cunning of those mischievous devils who work overtime at Christmas and just after, encouraging many missed opportunities. If there is any real merriment it is more apparent on behalf of these black oozing sprites who revel in the escapades of drunkenness, gluttony, irreverence, accident and morose dispirited conjecture. For here we have a time for marvelous preparation - and so often misused or accounted for; the men then wondering, as one year follows the next, why it has been that their lives are 'out of order' or 'out of control'.

Try to imagine if you will, that you are to gather and pack the provisions for the journey ahead, but you become distracted and the bounteous wares which shall answer every need along the way are snatched forthwith, and so with a sack near empty you approach the beginning of the journey. This is as with preparation denied.

There have always been special holy-day holidays allotted for the welfare of Man's spiritual sanity. There are differing New Year days as recognized, however these may specifically pertain to characteristic attributes of a particular race, in which it constitutes a considerable correspondence. However, the period between now and mid-January opens the globe to celestial splendor, invoking all living inhabitants to make correspondence with Heaven and her company.

This segment of the year, this one-twelfth, may be defined as the benefactor for all of the other months. Indeed, if men could but pause out from their yearly concerns sufficient to scrutinize their inner life, then the quality and nature of their year ahead would become apparent. Any unsettledness experienced is not so unusual in this forecasting, for as intimated before there is also a matter of refusing much that presents to oneself culminating from the year just passed. In other words, one would expect a man to become sensitive to the oncoming influences, and that he, as with his beloved planet, knows the spiralling evacuating of certain experience and phase, within. For it can be said, that as with the bodily motion of passing excretions which are unwanted, so too in a highly developed sense, we do forfeit much residual experience (of what we are/were in relation to the eleven months past) that we may be open to fresh aspects, would that we welcome them to us.

The planet heaves with such issue, and we who are inextricably caught in mimicry are purged of those associations of self and the 'odor' of self. We do of course, retain a memory; we do also, when we desire, savor or invoke the impressions of that memory; but we are disassociated - we and the memory are now distinct.

Here we might also make an important point: that during this time of new clothes, so to speak, it is also of great importance that we reflect upon the merits of our year and make a special effort to retain our acknowledgment of them.

If we may return to our traveller’s imagery for one moment, you may find that a clear-water river flows beside him, and upon it he has emptied his gathering of straws, and as they depart along the top of the watercourse he may see each one as it surfaces and goes on its way. As with an after-death review he is given the opportunity to experience particular memories objectively and yet sympathetically, before they break away. So we have now an entirely different meaning to the allusion of one 'grasping at straws'. 

This is very old imagery which shall speak to more than a few, for the collecting of straws daily was customary across continents of many now ancient peoples. For it was then that the physical substance of the reed did hold for them - at that time - the memory as a reference; and the pouch or bag of straws thus collected were later used for divining future events, being quite readable and thus interpreted. Certain weaving was related to this practice also, and too the collecting of various herbs which were significant to the time and day they were picked and then later consumed.


There are many calendar-associates which assist man in his analysis of the phases of his year, by which he will gather to himself, himself, before discharging all and surrendering it back. We may look very carefully at habits that are similar, of which the year has been built upon. However the point being, that it is a particularly beneficial time for one to reacquaint oneself with what one was in order to ascertain what one should like to become, and welcome that.

The equinox periods mark a changeover of aspects and influence. However, just as there be one deep and fulfilling breath amongst many moderate inhalations, there is one twelfth of the year in which the veils are thin, and just like Brigadoon appearing in the mist, the spiritual ears lean closer, the whispers become audible; the children re-enter the membrane of their Earth; the elderly whose year ahead will be their last shall know and summon their farewells; the upcoming growth of the plant kingdom etherically ignites and is manifest; the Three Kings: Wisdom, Mirth and Salvation, step abroad into every nation, forecasting, deliberating, distributing their offerings; the hearts of men are uplifted - because afore overburdened, they are now then purged of encrustations and purified; the little children acknowledge their playmates, their invisible brothers and sisters yet to be born and waiting; while the souls who return because of great love enshroud their earthly beloved in dear concern and watchful warning; while the visions parade before the dreaming men and some wake to delights, while others have naught but disappointment this time, this year. 

But for all there is the Majesty of Christ who is gathered, for it be as if there are twelve of Him in relation to the yearly episodes - He, in twelve aspects separated and distinguished - and come the Holy Nights they do draw into one, and His full might is realized within the Globe itself. By Christ the call into the spurious realms is met and answered, for this is surely His time when He does literally drench all matter with all manner of Heavenly in-pouring. 

There is not a minute to be wasted! For every atom (and we mean atom) of joy, of charity, of humor, of pleasantry, of humility, of perseverance, of courage and patience, of compassion, of haste -these and others need be charioted in and reservoired for later consumption. 

So too, the sciences, the imaginine corpuscles, the arts, the diagramatic engineerings; the exactings; the philosophical refreshments; the mathematical polyglots and the seeds for the earthly harvests (harvests in the literal meaning). By the sixth of January - or fifth in some parts of the world - He has reached His zenith and after which, His magnitude begins to lessen having dissolved away into separated aspects, which do in turn separate again and again.

If there is no other time than at Christmas and just beyond, that one is to partake in Communion, then at least this, above all other times, will infill the man for the year ahead.

There are many desires and considerations which we may hold briefly but feel incapable of realizing - their fulfillment may be the true gifts as given us, if we prepare solemnly and with resolution.

We rejoice Life, and acknowledge that mirth (true merriment) and its accompaniments are God-given. We are not to deny the richness of our lives, nor strip the color from our sight, but may actually come to our happiness with conscious exaggeration.

We may truly reflect upon what it is we may give of ourselves to our beloved, our brothers and sisters, and our World, and become sure of great ability that we may carry through with well-intentioned offerings. For as we are given, so we give, conspicuously.

In company one may deliberately pronounce out loud, that they should wish for them, as though they had the very power of God Himself to grant it- to wish it upon him, and wish well. When a group is gathered (they may prefer to write it down) they may, in turn, proclaim such wishes. These wish-gifts are most valuable to all concerned and are unquestionably fruitful. Quite so, as with the power of all prayers come Yule-month; for once again we are reminded that the materializations upon the Earth are spiritually nurtured - being dependent upon Heaven for manifestation. Our prayers carry us within, and for the period ahead we do go a little further and request a little louder. The emissaries to prayer are afforded greater tactical abilities and may find openings into the elements of the year ahead which hitherto were not provided for. Moreso we may pray for our Sovereign God, that He be assisted by us in all that He would wish for.

Our Globe opens a little more every time. The ventricles of our Earth receive Heaven in grand replenishment. May we, as we enter into this holiest of episodes, prepare for the receiving of those gifts that the year forthcoming shall unfold; and may we also think well of that we should impart to the world that is valuable.

The Impasse between Primary & Secondary Considerations- 6th December 1993

THERE are those times when we come to an impasse and there is no known way to resolve, proceed or determine amicably. Inwardly we may come to an impasse also for a time, indefinitely with no latchkey to progress, no mite of dissemination. For there are, quite simply, unresolvables upon which the world does rest also, and we as men find them out continually, even though we learn also a commensurate measure of peace.

If we are pressed to make change, within or without, it may not come easily for the present. Current conditions are irreconcilable to change and so we are obstinate and withholding. This rigidity, when exercised to good purpose, becomes essential to determining a steady character. However one may not be defensive to all change continually, for it then becomes a contest to life and the man becomes so decided in all that he is or wants to be, that he unwittingly resists and repels much goodness that would otherwise come to him.

So often there are crucial episodes affronting a man's circumstances and he has overlooked the Guardian's urgings, believing that change is unwanted. Should we pray for direction and assistance we should be open to it when it comes, as come it shall.

The student shall gain confidence by and by, in the value of his true opinion. It need be reiterated that only one knows their true heart, and to deny such promptings is confusing to the soul to say the least. When all has been measured beyond the exterial opinions, you must come to discernment for yourself and know exactly what is right and what is wrong.

Often this is confused with self-seeking for self-satisfaction, and it is argued that true discernment shall be clouded by improper motives or misguided desires. Firstly one must ask - who is it that you may trust if not yourself, to judge these and any matters? Secondly, if you do not practice being guided by the heart's directives then how may you hearken to your soul and the souls of the world in the future? To know your heart and know your mind is a good beginning, the causality of all good action.

If we do not live in accordance with these our higher tensions, then we desist and detract from a full and meaningful life. Life lives us, and obvious as it may sound, we become motivated and stimulated exterialy by that which is upon us at the time, and we respond accordingly. So you can see how it is that a man may be so closed to his higher directives and the angelic whisperings only to find a basal stimulation upon a semiconscious fixed existence, narrowing down unto death.

It may be that in the opinion of others there would be much disagreement - this is inevitable, sadly, that men are unsympathetic to each other. How can it be, you ask, that there are such outstanding differences at issue, that one man may be right and his opponent equally so?

When we come to examine our own inner intentions we may begin by sorting out the primary from the secondary considerations. We may not use this method to seek to justify ourselves completely, for in one sense that would be an impossibility, and in another it becomes a fruitless attempt should we not be true to ourselves firstly. To establish our primary intention we ask of ourselves, "What is my first reason?" and "What is the strongest motivating current that moves me?"

The secondary consideration is the question of the outfall from the first. This may be in contrast, and if qualified in options would be endless, of course. However, some may be entered into.

So we arrive at a set problem: for example, the Knight errant, would-be crusader for the Cause, has doubts about joining in league with company. Now there are two points of view to be had here, upon the subject of a primary consideration. That is, that some do work from negative assumptions that men believe and judge awrong and that one may look for such motivation at the outset. 

However, we do not fall in with that stream of thought, but acknowledge the contrary: that men begin with good and worthy desires essentially, and for that which is profitable to the soul. For why should a man seek for otherwise? It is natural to seek after the good and in the fullest sense- that is precisely what self-seeking is, being meritorious and wholesome to the outreaching soul.

Therefore we would not make suspicion of the Knight that he does not truly love Christ as he says he does; we would not surmise that he offers little in pledge but wants for vainglory; nor too that he has fanciful notions of knighthood in general. For even though one may never perhaps, love Christ as fully as is possible, and so it is a true judgment of any man to pooh-pooh such a generous declaration, we may counter this with the truer view of the heart, which indeed does know and love Christ completely. Therefore, the Knight when speaking from the heart is to be taken on his word and believed.

Secondly, whilst it may be said of any man who pledges afore time, that he has not the foresight for prediction; and too, it may be argued that it is tinged with exploitation, and that he seeks more than he does offer - we may agree to this insofar as all men, secondarily, are fain to these weaknesses. Whereas primarily and from the heart, it is the offering and original desire which makes the difference.

Outcomes are dependent upon many interconnecting factors and may be unresolvable in relation to original intention, and yet it is the seed that must go first regardless, and the offering is merit-worthy and not to be cut down by insidious condemnation.

Thirdly, it may be said (secondarily) that all men have fanciful notions of that which they should like to become. The athlete trains to such 'delusions', as does the saint attempt to graft himself to God; as we must necessarily project out from ourselves in order to incorporate and become more than ourselves. 

Naïveté is no sin, and in point of fact, the heart/soul is not so naive, for this is from where the motives of self-betterment are spawned.

So we may come to practice our criticisms of both ourselves and others in a most positive way, knowing that the worldly implications are one set of problems which are always negotiable, whilst the primary concerns of the interior's callings are there to be respected and acknowledged.

We do need confidence in our own goodness, for the very reason that if and when the world may contest otherwise, our surety of the heart-directive may be as a beacon to those who are unsure but wanting, and at the impasse of life contesting Life.